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Lost Life tracks

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1. FORESHADOWING

(Instrumental)





2. FEAR OF THE DREAM

Every evening when the sun is dying
And the lord of night shines trough the sky
Something strange awaits me as i am lying
The sight´s getting darker, nowhere to hide

Every night it´s always the same
Visions of the future are going their own way
No one can save you from this cruel game
Did you wake up? You´ve won just next day

[Chorus:]
I´ve got a fear of dream
Fear of this beast
Coming trough unconsiousness stream
Along the hidden midnight street

The senseless end of this ghostly story
Won´t allow you to open eyes
It´s just a dream so don´t be worried
It´s just a dream no space for lies

[Chorus]




3. LOST LIFE

I live in house for dying people
Next door stands old theatre
Which is closed
For too much long
As a time as i am alone
Beating the time by toutching memories
Reading forgotten script
Wrinkled face
Ripped curtain
No mark seen in the dirty crypt

I am the man
Who´s never spoken a word,
Who´s never breathed fresh air
I´m dust on old red chair
I am the man
Who´s never seen the play,
Who´s never tried to get there
I´m just running away

[Chorus:]
No more play
I lost my way
To change my fate
Which´s fucking grave
I can hope
But in blame
Only cry
Remains

Life has gone out of this place
Ghosts of past cover me
I am too old
My life is done
What can i do to stay alive
Looking trough the window every hour
Once a man now zombie
Woken up all night
She is my bride
I am almost resting in grave

[Chorus]

No melody there in orchestra
Dark corners occupied by spiders
Just once say goodbye
To the old man and his pain
For the last time switch on the lights
For the last time give me a chance
Stuck up cruel fate for the last time
Stuck up cruel fate give me the chance

I didn´t do enything to feel better
Never did a right step
Didn´t feel love
Didnˇt feel hate
Expecting nothing waiting for death
Fuck
Never hit me a storm
I lose my life
I lose my soul
Fate is a joker and i am a worm
Worm without privilage to existence
Better to smash me when
I was in womb
The fucked tomb
Or kill me when i was in there
From the cradle to grave everything is blacked
Mountains of fear and shame
Lost life i have
Lost life i take
Six feet under is where i´ll stay




4. NO GUN = NO FUN

I´ve got a new image fuckers, people call me maniac
I´ve bought a new toy to play what can make a real big wreck
There´s no disease in my head or in my clever brain
Expecting nor a sympathy nor a fame
I´m not doing beauty things, just what must be done
Not for higher principes but for fun
It seems to be a harder way, not to feel the hate
Sorry for these injures but it´s just too great
There is no difference between a businessman or nun
It is very powerful to use a released gun
I´ve found my dream real

[Chorus:]
Bullets leave barrel loud
Flare up gun fire
Beware i may shoot in head
He, who plays doesn´t do bad
Shooting down suddenly
Looking so friendly
Gun makes me feel free

I´ve got the same image fuckers, they still call me maniack
Reloading that toy to play which can make a real big wreck
Aiming at targets all around i don´t need the light
Everybody who wants to run can, but cannot hide
I can be on the roof or on the other side
You are so good people, try to stay alive
My hands are controlled by extreme experience
It´s not strange if you feel, you will need defence
You are lucky when i stop my super exibition
Nothingness is symptomatic you didn´t live in fiction
Pain, pain

[Chorus]

Bullets strike air next to head
You should have better stayed in bed
Behind the belt feel weight is nice
Sensation of the power, the glory ride

[Chorus]




5. LAST SUNRISE

I´ve never reached the top of my shadow
But tommorow i´ll reach my end
Now just a sadness grows inside me
To hell or heaven i´ll be sent
I´ve got only one more wish
Just to see tommorows sunrise
Sooner than the angel´s wings
Will forever cover my eyes

[Chorus:]
No quarrel with the fate
Not to blame or to hate
Just to see my last sunrise
No sadness or even tears
No worries or even fears
Just to see my last sunrise
Then go away in peace

It has always been my fight
Fight for freedom and fame
I just wanted to get higher
But it´s always been the same
No one will wait me any longer
Only on the other side
No one will wait me any longer
Only on the other side

Chorus




6. DREAM OF FEAR

So here comes the night
The time of lonelyness and fear
My eyes has fallen into darkness
It´s mystic might is near
I am a victim of my memories
Silent enemies
Hidden in my mind
They´re about to pursue me and catch
To create this awful
To create this awful nightmare

I see something walking through me
And whispering these dreadful words
"i´m gonna catch you and you´ll
never come back to your home"

[Chorus:]
I am a stranger in the midnight street
Fighting agains this half-day beast
Hoping to find salvation
Living my dream of fear

Counting my steps
To a safer place
Mind´s getting clearer,
No doubt about it
I start to hear voice
From haze

I wish i´d never fallen asleep
Cause on ´n´ on i hear this prophet
Wanting to find its sense
That´s not coming from deep
As i´m running through the land of nowhere

Counting my steps
To a safer place
Mind´s getting clearer,
No doubt about it
I start to hear voice
From haze

Eternal voices, the shadows of my past
Are waking up to kill my sanity
No one remains here, i am the last
Surrounded to show my quality
I´m shaking like a rotting tree
Which has got mad from the endless pains
And wish just to be free
(get rid of this chain)

[Chorus]




7. ILLUSION SQUARE

Closing eyes
You´ve got enough time (to)
Satisfy
Desire

You are a chump
Wasting own life
Killing your chance
To be number one

Escape every-day stereotype
Hide before outside world
Find a place where you can try
Be yourself without a fuckin´ shame
Where is no duty and cold rain
The key is in your mind
It´s not overcrowded by stuff
Nobody produces any row
Go trough intellectual growth
No intolerance and violence
No terrorising fuckin´ fools
You can make your own rules

Escape from boring reality
Hide behind the mirror of life
Never lost in city´s hive
You´ll have no suckin´ depression
Live by edifying emotions
Never-ending free ride
Opened door to subconscious
Bridge across the stream of thought
Access free, go inside
Look forward to vacation
Pleasure park for all
Access free in everyone

Illusion square
What´s going on in there

Imaging, challenging

Absence of all your pain
Pleasure runs trough your veins