Chimaira

Darkness Inside tracks

Lyrics


1. THIS PRESENT DARKNESS

In this present darkness
I fall upon broken knees
Crawl through weight depression haunted by and unborn Ghost
I'll never know your fears
Never see me in your eyes
Curse the one that stole your name from
Me this is the monster that they create from second of Your conception
Minutes leading to death sentence will shackle me and turn Eyes red
I will constantly endure the pain of your creation
How can I lie awake grace
How can I lie awake my love
Will stay dead in this present darkness
I fall




2. PAINTING THE WHITE TO GREY

Face I am nothing face
Complete by sarcastic tastes
What a waste I think I'd rather die
Wanting never gaining I find myself pondering life
Always situations I can never hide
Crying tears of anger, hate
Depressed I never know the me, never know what to do
Slit pour out the life a bottle of the "vive"
A desperate cry for something else to justify
I'm in a daze caused by pain
A failing force that wants to change
Painting the white to grey
Numb body shivering
Blood dripping from the skin
Painting the white to grey
Plastic always drastic
A vision of a psychopathic with a razor crawling through The attic
I know somewhere out there someone cares
Wanting me to get my head out of the clouds as they think It's time repair
These scars will never clear
I'll never be the same little one with hopes of one day Maybe being sane
I might have tried before...but I locked the door
Now I need a reason to unlock it
I'm in a daze caused by pain
A failing force that wants to change
Painting the white to grey
Numb body shivering
Blood dripping from the skin
Painting the white to grey
Cutting and popping
I know I'm not the definition of your model I'm always dropping
Lying and crying
I rarely find the relevance in always competing or Trying...
I take dying
I need to feel the shame in what it was that I did
Cold
In the back of a puppeteer bathroom floor is where I tried To die




3. DIVINATION

I always searched for an answer for my convictions
A troubled mind at 15 demonic visions
I saw you rape dand beaten
Who the hell is this monster that surounds my brain
I try to make some sense of this, try to break the mold
Divination
A power I wish I did not have now
I wake with sweat and bood scars of you dad choke
I wake from this nightmare to find it's the truth
Tell me now father what did we do
I'll never understand your actions...never speak to you
Don't try and correct your mistakes never trust in you
Fake fucker, fake father die.




4. SPHERE

Crawling back up from the floor now
I look above me and there you are
I see your smiling face so pure, its gold
Reaching your hand out to touch mine
Perhaps all I needed was your smile
A nice compliment or two
Where were you a few weeks ago?
When I was wanting to die
I felt so worthless
But you saved me
Watching me almost fall under
You were with him I was with her
Wanting each other more then life
A kiss away from being perfect
Cry out you're watching over me and I can't be with you
All I wanted was to end me, now to be in love with two
I hate my thoughts now
I'll leave her alone to live in bliss
Your my savior, my dream come true
Why
Trying to figure out a way
I'll lick your wounds, I'll heal your sores
I can never face my past
Not together I felt so sick inside
Death will come very soon
I tear as we drift away
Picture me dead would you cry




5. LEND A HAND

You are god's most beautiful creation
From the moment I set my eyes upon you
I knew I wanted to be near
To feel your arms wrap around me
And to share myself with you
Would be nothing but ecstasy
Knowing you will make me whole again
Then she said no
I cried out to help you
My friend who does nothing
I watched you high I watched you low
Never falling to far
I am glad to have been here
To help you get through her I know I didn't fulfill,
But I helped somehow
I'll take your pain
Create with me
Chim was a way for you to breathe
I hope it was enough
To help you through this war called love
Take our hand
Before you leave
One more time, reaching our dreams
We feel incomplete
I know one day
You'll solve that mystery
And make them feel
The way you did me
Lend a hand, ae
To you my friend




6. EMPTY

I thought I knew you
My dream had come true
Look back, don't crack
Your stares are empty now
I am still here I won't crack
It's all coming back
My thoughts of the fading you
Reach through, make you
Mold myself for two I cry for the bleeding...whore
Loss of feeling now I take the pain
So it's all right now I'm still a justified hole in your Eyes
A pupil never a master a crumble of dirt to the land
Take the blood right out of my hands as you
Realize it's your blood
Blood My eyes see noones empty face
I see a second coming of the land I was born with the fear Of love
You made that fear a dream goddless
I see me reaching for the sun
Try forever to reach the sky I'm empty
Can't find you I am still here
Its' all coming back
My thoughts of the fading you
Reach through, make you
Mold myself for two I cry for the bleeding...whore
Failure




7. SILENCE

I am the one breaks all
This misery you call your life
I am the one who will carry you
To an altar of joy
Follow me
Flee from this
Except nothing but the best
I will hide all your pain
Resort to the unknown with
Silence
The way I will keep
Silence from letting you flee
You are the one who changed me
To a quivering mess
You are the one who stopped me
From doing all I can
Now's your time
Let me in let me in your functioning mind
I will hide all your pain
Resort to the unknown with
Silence
The way I will keep
Silence from letting you flee
I feel your stench
So warm I'm home
Let me stay
And feel you more
I come
All over now
Where do I go from here
Leave me behind
Never again bitch don't even try
Silence your mouths you whore




8. SATAN'S WIZARD

This one is called: satan's wizard
Make some noise
Where the bitches at?

Woah...satan's wizard...satan
The wizard is coming for you
He is the wizard
Alright!

He is the wizard
Satan's wizard
Satan's wizard
Satan's wizard
Satan's wizard!

Satan's wizard, baby
Fucking
He is
Satan
Satan's Wizard
The wizard

Thank you very much, cleveland
Sorry I could not tonite
How is everybody feelin'?
What does everybody think of chimaira?




9. THIS PRESENT DARKNESS (1999)

In this present darkness
I fall upon broken knees
Crawl through weight depression haunted by and unborn Ghost
I'll never know your fears
Never see me in your eyes
Curse the one that stole your name from
Me this is the monster that they create from second of Your conception
Minutes leading to death sentence will shackle me and turn Eyes red
I will constantly endure the pain of your creation
How can I lie awake grace
How can I lie awake my love
Will stay dead in this present darkness
I fall




10. DIVINATION (1999)

I always searched for an answer for my convictions
A troubled mind at 15 demonic visions
I saw you rape dand beaten
Who the hell is this monster that surounds my brain
I try to make some sense of this, try to break the mold
Divination
A power I wish I did not have now
I wake with sweat and bood scars of you dad choke
I wake from this nightmare to find it's the truth
Tell me now father what did we do
I'll never understand your actions...never speak to you
Don't try and correct your mistakes never trust in you
Fake fucker, fake father die.




11. FORCED LIFE

Images still in my head of you dead
I wish I could take them away instead
I sit in my room alone and cry over my loss
Will anything ever be the same?
I wish I could imagine you happy
A life of ecstasy that would be good enough to stop the Pain that lingers
In my heart I know I would be content
It's your forced life...It's your forced life...doesn't it Feel the same to you?
I sit and wonder
While you ponder of pathetic items that bring you happiness
Those things that put a smile to your face
Are the things that kill me inside
I know deep down you have a good heart
But why am I never included in all of this?
I take you in...rise you up, yet my soul stays untouched?
Nothing ever changes in your mind
Nothing ever changes
Stick your hate to me
I'll find a way to break free




12. REFUSE TO SEE

One more time I feel my life slip through my finger tips I Cry
My eyes bleed with pain...pain!
You never understood how I felt
You always shunned my damned existing fate
You ran away from...me
He thought he could not run away I told him pain denies Soul save your life
Refuse to see
He'll refuse to see
How my life is really going
It's time to worship but he does not care
Oh at one time he did
After 600 years it's getting old, this goddamn trial is Done
You thought you could run and hide
You thought you could rise up
Motherfucker you were wrong
Refuse to see
Led to believe that I could gain your respect
You've never felt the need
Except at one time
His hands red with blood
Crucified a martyr for my sins
It didn't work...My soul will soon die like his
One more day has gone by
No one mourns his passing
The final shot went right through
His pain gone
Crucified all his ways
So many days filled with pain
Crucified all his sorrow
Refused to see!




13. SEVERED

Stay awake to decide
Are you coming back?
Is this my sanity?
I can't forgive
Oh is it the same to me?
I can't take your place
I'll never see you, never flee from me
Severed
Lost lies in the house I bring
I can't fucking see
I can never pull your self from me
I can't focus
Libertine my "said to be"
I will never save you
Wait...today is not the same
Severed




14. TASTE MY...

Fall into my hole
I keep seeking
Is there anything left to consume now?
I wish I were happy living in
Living in your perfect world
You were never understanding enough
You were never supportive of me
Now I run away from you
Now I hide all this pain
Can you taste my tears on you?
Now where do I see myself?
Stagnation from my own selfish thoughts
Should I work to achieve my goals or should I work to Leave you be or
Should I work to keep you home?
You were never understanding enough
You were never supportive of me
Now I run away from you
Now I hide all this pain
Can you taste my tears on you?
May guns rise to kill me
Vice grip




15. VEXATION

(Instrumental)




16. GAG

After years of endless torture
You try to come back
Likeness of an unwanted child, grow
Simplified case of defamation
You left her bleeding
Thrown out the window
I tried to compete to be the good one
I'll never understand (x3)
What the fuck did we ever do
To make you hate
Remaining scars of an unwanted child, lost
Justified, inebriate
Left me bleeding
Thrown out the window
I tried to compete to be the good one
I'll never understand (x3)
20 years of mind rape brings forth my hate
My hate derived from you, you mother fucker




17. FASCINATION STREET (THE CURE COVER)

Oh it's opening time
Down on fascination street
So let's cut the conversation
And get out for a bit
Because I feel it all fading and paling
And I'm begging
To drag you down with me
To kick the last nail in
Yeah! I like you in that
Like I like you to scream
But if you open your mouth
Then I can't be responsible
For quite what goes in
Or to care what comes out
So just pull on your hair
Just pull on your pout
And let's move to the beat
Like we know that it's over
If you slip going under
Slip over my shoulder
So just pull on your face
Just pull on your feet
And let's hit opening time
Down on fascination street

So pull on your hair
Pull on your pout
Cut the conversation
Just open your mouth
Pull on your face
Pull on your feet
And let's hit opening time
Down on fascination street




18. DEAD INSIDE (LIVE)

I felt so alone
You left feeling so empty and needing
Can't see the glitter in you
You called me all the time
Hiding behind your lies materialistic
Go away
You don't know what it's like to be dead inside
You called him a friend to help you get through it
I see your true face now
Well my tears are gone, I am happy now
Thanks for making it clear
Go away
You don't know what it's like to be dead inside
I am dead to you
You take my heart and used it as a tool
I wish that this would just go away
You can't find love you can't cry tears
And you won't be crying alone
Who are you today...another face erased