Abacinate

Ruination tracks

Lyrics

1. NEGATING THE OMNIPOTENCE OF YOUR SO CALLED MAN IN THE SKY

Looking ahead
I’d want to see your world burn
Look in my head
Certain things I can’t figure out
Lend me your hand
Oh, one who makes the world turn
Tell me your plans
I am so misguided,
Lost and must not think aloud or on my Own

I want to meet God
Spit in his disembodied face
I live in the now
Not imaginary past times
Divine judgment at death
Hypocritical actions of
Discriminative
And forcibly violent

Against others with faith just as blind as their own
Depressed when they compare themselves to God
Love thy neighbors, and thy enemy…
Yet may their blood spill if they preach another name!

Speak Religiously

Talk to me, now successfully negating
The omnipotence of your so called man in the sky

He has made people feeble and weak, complasive,
Fanatical, unreasonable in moral
Valuations, self-loathing;
Slaves to a system that causes more harm than good
(Mindless fools that use a lack
Of empirical knowledge to affirm God)

Can we affirm God? Can we do this?

So let’s go chopping off heads
I wouldn’t settle for less
Let’s go chopping off heads
I wouldn’t settle for less than that

I believe I know wrong from right
We seem to forget about the middle ages
Nailing motherfuckers right to boards
Impaling all the men who won’t conform
We will have nothing of pagans
We will have them exterminated
We have the threat eliminated
Your fruit of afterlife now negated

This is the process of the light
This is the progress of a lie

Lucifer’s eyes
This is a hymn
You’re afraid of a mind
Full of knowledge

So you prey on the weak
The ones so lost and hopeless and without family

It’s the money your God needs
Filling the pockets of pastors
And preachers molesting our Kids

Your God is Dead…




2. INTERFECTION

I can sleaze my brain disease and smell the interfection
Smoke some shit,
We’ll talk some shit and maybe learn a Lesson
Kill all the scum and all the pigs and crooked politicians
Grab all your guns and all of your sons we’ll start this Revolution now…
Before it’s too late
We must recuperate
Open all blind eyes
Look forward to the end of life
The things we’ve seen
The things I know that you know
We can not be the only ones that know right know who’s got To go…
We bleed from inside
Intestine pain spreading out
Crystals behind our eyes
Thirsty for your glands
Should I sew this shut or leave it open?
Fluids mist the air spreading interfection
Infecting all we’ll start this revolution
Ending all of time
The ones who don’t believe me
We’ll cast out from our lines
And they’ll all die believing
The Interfection makes the laws…




3. THE NUREMBERG CODE

I hate this place more, get me floored
Abject failure, familiar
My eyes are sore
Mistakes in the course of what’s worth living for
Poster child for cerebral palsy
Heartfelt concerns nauseate
Use me for this vivisection
It’s not entirely too late
Experiments are necessary
Deforming, living surgery
Anesthesia, likely not to benefit
More generally, ending the suffering
I hope I never…
I hope I never come back…
I am not self-conscious at all
Only here as means to an end
I will not be self conscious at all
I am only here as a means to an end
This end is man…
Use this body for vivisection
Sensible to pain, no affection
Of pity, certain things savoring of cruelty
To cut up alive, involving dissection
Call it what you will
Remove my eyes, I’m sick of vision
Life lived black and still
Kill my mind, it’s my decision
My consent, my own will
I can’t reason – I can’t speak
Only, Will I suffer… here
Various chemical substances injected in me
Stick around, when it goes down, it’s something to see
Beat my legs with hammers and then smash in my knees
The only way to cure this shit depression disease
Don’t feel bad, it’s all I have, it’s something I need
Let me be for a while… Let me be forever
The broken dreams of a child… Let me be the never
Herophilos - Six hundred dead – Experiments are necessary This has always been
I’m losing sight; I’ve lost the state of mind…
Torture Board Death Chamber – Lab Rat Cart Racing
Scientific Merit Ethically Defended
The cutting of or operation, While I’m wide awake
An Investigation, For Physiological and Pathological
Minute or Pitiless Examination




4. THESE THINGS WERE MEANT TO KILL YOU

My head is full of change
Reaching for something strange
I’ve spent all my time just not giving fuck
I can’t stay
Can you see… see it behind my eyes?
Take it and hide it and live in the dark
Please don’t speak
Quick ecstasy, Quick dose of Scotch Whiskey
Where are my keys, I swear I can drive this thing
I hope I kill little children, I hope I hit a tree
Nothing to live for anyways, I’ve got nothing loose
A good taste of snow, and it hits when it hits the back of My throat
And I’m alive now!
Made to thrill you, all along these things were meant to
Kill you
Fast women and fast machines
Someone who knows, but it ain’t possible
We’ll all burn!
Made to thrill you, all along these things were meant to
Kill you
Fast women and fast machines
It will always thrill you, these things above all things Were meant to kill you
Fast women and fast mistakes
When you’re drunk and stoned
And you’re all alone
Lock all doors and destroy your fucking phone
Spill the bong, talk like a wasted slob
It ain’t so bad as the last I had
Puts my mind in overdrive
Bloody nose and loss of erection
A Teenage whore wants it somewhat more
“It’s Jesus in a bowl” She said.
A sniff of H
Then stomach torture
I lose my mind, then get a grip
Stumble, Trip, Fuck, Shit, Kill Me Quick
This will be my relief
Let’s interbreed the sanguine seed
Turn into a whore with dying eyes




5. SHE GAVE UP THE GHOST

Lost, consumed in a moment
Engulfed by illusions behind her eyes
There is no solution to being a liar
Deceiving the beast
This all made sense until just then
Let’s just pretend that god is dead
Pressed… Back is breaking, Praise her eyes
No solitude within the lusting mind
Please believe me and waste your time
This all made sense until just then
Let’s just pretend that god is dead
No certain direction but certainly blind
Regress is endless as the end of all time
Smashing all boundaries, never confined
Burning my bridges, cutting my ties
Now… Faced with consequence… Should have planned it ahead
Might as well be dead, Over and over again
A Fuck that’s the slice of all time
And I must be out of my mind
I can’t begin to describe this shit
You’ve got me out of my mind bitch, you!
Slaughter your Daughter
Misogynistic killing spree
Her blood is so hot
I will do this just for me
My Sword stays Wet
I am now beside myself
Regret? Remorse?
It’s too late to think of that
Your Cunt…
She’s giving up the Ghost again
Whore? Slut?
Or just another Fuck-Friend?
Or Love?
I won’t forget what you just said
Now You’re Dead
Score One for Jesus; It’s a Sin – Pray…
What The Fuck?!
One Less Mouth to Feed for me
The end result is like Blood in your Feces
What I’ve done I can’t take back
The eyes roll back in the head as I stand and
Watch Her Bleed
If anyone’s dead it should be me
What in the god-damn Hell could I have been thinking
What I’ve done I can’t take back
I guess it’s time to end this life
Why My Life?
I can’t Lie for long
I Just need to Off Myself, Your Blood is my Shelter
It feels just like back in the Day, Playing with Razors
We can be Free and Rot in Hell, I’ll Love You Forever
A Fuck that’s the slice of all time
And I must be out of my mind
I can’t begin to describe this shit
You’ve got me out of my mind bitch, you!
-This brings us Closer-




6. DELERIUM TREMENS

Trembling madness
Of benzodiazepines, class psychoactive drugs
Sedative, hypnotic and amnesic – relax
Colloquially, the DTs
The rapid reduction in my intake
Flow of barbiturates that once kept me tranquilized
Habitual, excessive, drinking them dry
Visions of insects that live in my veins
“The shakes”, “The Horrors”, “Rum Fits”, “Shaking Delirium”
Cause of downregulation
Acting negative feedback
High pulse and rate of breathing
Tremors making me hate this
Altered sensorium
Users and the all used up
Acute ethanol withdrawal
Progresses as formication
Shaking, beginning to scratch more
Most extreme paranoia
Maximus haloucinosis
Mortality fading in contrast
Cause of downregulation
Active negative feedback
Schizophrenia, uncontrollable tremors
Heart attack, cardiac arrhythmia
Break your back to stand up straight
The weight of your woes erased
Extremities have now been reached
By bouts of anxiety
Automaticity an impulse on its own
Adrenergic Storm!
More!
Adrenergic Storm!
Can’t take back this worthless existence…
Which shall be seen…
Like pulling teeth for answers…
Which shall be seen…
Like a pissed off child you begged me…
Nothing achieved…
Left for dead in my Delerium Tremens…
Left for dead…
It’s just a waste of time
When I think everything turns yellow
Content to waste my time
I drag my feet and I lurk in shadows
Symptomatic and supportive
Typically kept sedated
Shades closed and doors are locked
Reduce the risk of relapse
So now I’ll black out
Until I come down
Psycho, discourse
Numb senses
Cocaine, amphetamines
High fevers
Ritalin, Adderall
The Lunesta creeps
Yield to temptations to scratch invariably
Bleeding Skin and Scars of Leprosy
Just making it worse again, convulsions and nervousness
Seizures of hopelessness, I’ve summoned them back again
No Control
Crooked spine and broken back bone
Bitch then sleep… Just fucking die now
You’re thirty years old
Slit your wrists, Waste of life
That’s been wasting my time




7. SIX AND EIGHT HARD (NICKEL EACH)

I realize I’m obscene
Thinking things I shouldn’t think
Think of things that we all see
All the time on your T.V.
Sluts are cool, Whore is cool
If you’re drunk, it’s all good
Suck a cock, think of Mom
The Hymen’s broke, on cum she chokes
And she’s only thirteen
No longer a virgin, and who’s to blame?
Reality? Or T.V.?
Media banks on it, Ruining Youth
Too much acceptance of moral abuse
Will be our downfall, Weak and Complacent
Chasing a farce, A false Dream
And this dream will be just what you prayed for…
Lies!!!
And so we preach fornication
Lost souls recruited in force
And so we reach jubilation
Let me rejoice because our kids are all whores
I’m sorry, what?
Explain your intentions…
The new wave hookers,
Five!
A Teenage Queen of the Torture Soul
The horror is so hot
Don’t beg when you come around…
So you’ll get ahead in life, just making an offering
Sexual favors and a touch of class
You want the fame and money, the glitz and glam
But they never taught you a certain respect…no
Media – Silver – Gold
The Center Attention
The Force Fed Misdirection
It’s Me, Always Me
On Your T.V. Screen
I’m sorry, what?
Explain your intentions…
The new wave hookers,
Five!
A Teenage Queen of the Torture Soul
The horror is so hot
Six And Eight Hard (Nickel Each)…
So you’ll get ahead in life, just making an offering
Sexual favors and a touch of class
You want the fame and money, the glitz and glam
But they never taught you a certain respect
Girls Gone Wild featuring Your Child
Tell that little bitch she hasn’t lost her touch




8. SADIST MISOGYNIST

Sex and Exploitation
A film appallingly shot
My Grindhouse Torture Dungeon
So obsessively Fun
Sew your lips shut – Won’t feel bad
Show me visions – That you have
Mutilation – Cut me back
Such nice features – That you had
S&M Sex – Don’t Feel bad
Drugs and Violence – It’s so sad
The Gutter Trash and The Scary Man
Untie the ropes if you think you can
You Can’t!! - Nightmare of Ecstasy -
Suck a fucking dick and hike that ass up
Perversion, Ugly Sex, My Masterpiece
Then we get to Dream by Porno Prophecies
Burgeoning Drug Culture of the 1960’s
All sizzle, No steak… Lurid Poster Art
Bloodthirsty Bitches and the Depraved
Suck a Bloody Dick and Hike that Ass up
I think it brought the feeling back to my legs…
Blood Rape Revenge Fantasy
(is it that ludicrous?)
Exploitation is no joke
It is my reality
Make me horny, You’ll be sorry
In my Sex-Gore Netherworld




9. HOW I WOULD HAVE DONE IT

DNA analysis of the blood found in her hair on their Clothes
DNA testing of the blood under the girl’s finger nails was From an unidentified person
Never to be found.
Talent for Killing, by gun, strangulation (That’s how it’s Done, I’m never to be found)
Cyanide, killed quickly, my poision injection (That’s how It’s done. I’m never to be found)
The strong arm of the laws keeps trying to track me down
Random target, a man out walking his dog
I mean nothing to him, he means nothing to me, so it’s
A crime that makes no sense, no motive realized
I picked up all the casings, and then fled the scene
Placing the body in the trunk of my car
Driving it down to the old junkyard
Disposing, Crushing, Never to be found
You think my methods have become unsound
In a cave in the wilderness
You’ll be eaten alive
You pray to a God who will not save you
Pray for your life, pray that I won’t take you
You’ve got 30 minutes… times up…
Contract kills pay the bills or just for thrills
(Won’t regret this!)
Use a gun just or for fun I’ll slice em’ up
(Won’t regret this!)
Seal em’ up in a steel drum and let em’ rot
(Won’t regret this!)
Decapitate, Mutilate Masticate
(Won’t regret this!)
They won’t catch me!
Contract kills pay the bills or just for thrills
(Won’t regret this!)
Use a gun just or for fun I’ll slice em’ up
(Won’t regret this!)
Seal em’ up in a steel drum and let em’ rot
(Won’t regret this!)
The last thing you will see are my sadistic eyes
As you await your inevitable demise
(Await your demise)
Ahhh, it’s easier then you think
You just gotta play it smart
Try not to rape the dead bodies
They’ll find traces of your semen…
(End your life, I won’t Be crossed)
(In a drum, your corpse will rot)
Involved in pornography, narcotics, contract killing and Gamling on a world wide basis
Hits became sloppy I’ve been leaving behind too much Evidence…too much
Contract kills pay the bills or just for thrills
(Won’t regret this!)
Use a gun just or for fun fucking I’ll slice em’ up
(Won’t regret this!)
Seal em’ up in a steel drum and let em’ rot
(Won’t regret this!)
Decapitate, Mutilate Masticate
(Won’t regret this!)




10. THE VANISHING WILL TO SUSTAIN MY EXISTENCE

Die – Scum – Fucks…
Kill me quickly – Just fucking kill me
No desire to continue life
Anxiously awaiting death and looking forward to the Blackness
This precious gift of life isn’t precious
Why can’t you see what is going on here in the world Around you?
This precious gift of life sucks dick – ends quick
Every single day hat goes by – can’t take it
Want to give up – hang myself – stop running from your fate
Just do it!
Waiting for the moment of truth – the answer
Solution to – all of my misery and torture
Just Do It!
This will be my final reply – before I finally decide
To just die – watch while I take my life
Just Do It!
No more reason to ever try – Game over
Nobody lives
What’s the point?
A stupid routine that I only know as Me.
Make a choice
Your decision infects me and all I foresee is me
Dead…
And it will be your fault
I wish death on you all
Your thoughts aint my thoughts
When it’s done it’s done
Darkness, no light
Smell of death, filling the air, filling the night
No one in sight
No one to try and prevent me from doing it right
How could it be?
This is my vanishing will to sustain my existence
Set me free
Let me bleed.
I guess this is it
Slit both my wrists
And you might see me dangling
And you might see me rotting
Feel free to piss on my corpse
Make sure you feel no remorse
Basically, honestly, technically, eventually
Possibly, actually, unfortunately, this is me.
This is my fate, my place
Every minute meant nothing, and you
Should be glad I don’t exist