Defeater

Letters Home tracks

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1. BASTARDS

I hope this finds you well
A father lost and mother dear
The family that's kept me here
Heartless and cold, and I've learned it well
How to loose everything
How to push you away
How to lie when I say
"I never raised a hand to the ones I love."
Now look at how
You beg and pray
For your god and his grace
To keep you safe
To save you from me

My broken spirit and back
My calloused, shaking hands
The ache I carry in me
My grief and skeletons
The weight you carried inside
A weight that held my bloodline
Black out the sunlight
I count these burdens as mine
And still all you see is that bastard in me

Believing in hell
A father lost and mother dear
The family that I squandered here
Heartless and cold, and I forgot it all
How to loose everything
How to push you away
How to lie when I say
"I never raised a hand to the ones I love."
But I remember how
You begged and prayed
For your god and his grace
To keep you safe
To save you from me

My broken spirit and back
My calloused, shaking hands
The ache I carry in me
My grief and skeletons
The weight you carried inside
A weight that held my bloodline
Black out the sunlight
I count these burdens as mine
And still all I see is that bastard in me




2. NO SHAME

Another day when the sun ain't shining
Another night with the bottle I drown in
Still hoping, still waiting, still breathing by a thread,
Still holding on (x2)

To my demons
To every dying wish I've had of us leaving
This ghost town still draggins us down
To pull you out of this hell
You've been living in with the needle

Every dying wish I've had that you would clean up
Your lips, your let downs pulling me underground
With every tired lie you tell just to fill your heart.

You thin your veins with the dirt, with the hurt,
With the memories of the pain

Still hoping, still waiting,
Still breathing by a thread, still holding on

And I lost my faith in your god, in your word,
In every promise that you break

Still hoping, still waiting, still breathing by a thread,
Still holding on

So I walk the same way home each night to find that back
alley pusher and take his life
And I ain't ashamed for what I've done
I'll take an eye for an eye until every junkie is blind
The river bed hold the blood and the knife

And I ain't ashamed for what I've done
I took his eye as a prize
The man who laid with my wife
Lays at the bottom of that river where the sun never shines

Another day when the sun ain't shining
Another night with the bottle I drown in
Still hoping, still waiting, still breathing by a thread,
still holding on




3. HOPELESS AGAIN

Dear old friend
I'm feeling hopeless again
I'm giving in to my vices bottle in hand

Dear old friend
I think I'm slipping again
At the end of my rope with this pain in my head

I could use your sage old advice
Some word to calm me down
I ain't been sleeping much nights
With my girl sleeping all over town

Short list of my enemies
Since days I spent in the trench
But he ain't no man, he's a cheat
A coward staring down death

Dear old friend
In this letter I'll never send
I confess I'd kill them both where they stand

Dear old friend
You only get what you give
At the end of our love this pain is begging [?] my head

I could use your sage old advice
Some word to calm me down
I ain't been sleeping much nights
With my girl sleeping all over town

Short list of my enemies
Since days I spent in the trench
But he ain't no man, he's a cheat
A coward staring down death

My old friend, my old friend, my old friend, my old friend
I'm feeling hopeless again

On the front lines
I watched as good men died
I left a piece of me in foreign country side
And in my own home, I'm a stranger now
I was a husband once
Lies built on losing ground (x2)

My old friend, my old friend, my old friend, my old friend
I'm feeling hopeless again (x2)




4. BLOOD IN MY VEINS

Can you hear those birds sing?

Means we're closer to shore
Means we're closer to home
Further from love and war
Further from what made sense

What we were born to do
What kept the blood in our veins
Keep my veins thin with booze

Kept my hand on my gun
And my gun by my side
Kept the moon in my thoughts
With the sun in my eyes

Kept my head hanging long
Kept my gun by my side
My brother's name in my head
And the tears from my eyes

Kept the blood in my veins
Kept the blood in my veins
Brother's name in my head
Kept the blood in my veins

I've been praying for death
For me and my friends
So we'd never wake up
To our lovers again

Because every lover had lied
When they said we'd be fine
When they said in good faith
They would sleep alone every night

Hope to come home in one piece with our boys by our side

Now we're ragged and the torn life the flags that we fly
Like the ones we lay down
On a coffin so clean

See those eyes staring back where the boys used to be
The boys we used to be

Kept the blood in my veins
(I re-read the postcards you sent, wish the truth was a lie)
Kept the blood in my veins
(The waves on the hull, throw your words off the side)
Brother's name in my head
(The slip takes the deed, dying back home)
And the blood in my veins
(I want to sing to the depths, with the letters you wrote)

Kept the blood in my veins
Kept the blood in my veins
Brother's name in my head
And the blood in my veins

Kept the blood in my veins




5. NO RELIEF

Waking up safe and sound
The words could hardly leave my mouth
"How did I make it out alive?"
I love the same sleep every night

"How did I make it out alive?"

I got your letter today
And when I heard my name
My stomach sand to the floor
I can't take anymore
I'm digging my own grave

And it read "Dear John"
I knew this day would come
I'm drinking every drip until nothing will stop
Until you pull that rig from your arm

A wise man once told me
There wil be no relief
We will never be free
Of the horrible things
And the pain that we've seen

And that same man was told

"No matter where we may roam
You forget what you know of
That life you once lived
Because your home ain't never home"

I got your letter today
And when I heard my name
My stomach sand to the floor
I can't take anymore
I'm digging my own grave

And it read "Dear John"
I'm drinking every drip until the ache will stop
And it read "Dear John"




6. NO FAITH

It can be heard
In every man, every bullet, every shell
In every word, ink and pen
Every family torn, every post marked stamp wishing them well

I'm a man of no faith
But I'm familiar with hell

It can be seen
On every kid scared to death
The wear and the pain on their face

We march on into snow, into rain
Our friends and our holes and our early graves

I'm a man of no faith
But I'm familiar with hell




7. DEAD SET

I've got this hope in my chest
I'll see one more sunrise
I've got my brother's good luck
Around my neck every night

I've got this song in my head
It's got me thinking of him
My hear is heavy with guilt
It's got my blood running thin

We hold fast, dead set
Hold fast, dead set
The only friends I count as mine

We hold fast, dead set
Hold fast, dead set
Are those who'd die to save your life

I've got this burning in my gut
I've got these words that I write
So if I don't make it home

They'll know they were always on my mind [x4]

We hold fast, dead set
Hold fast, dead set
The only friends I count as mine

We hold fast, dead set
Hold fast, dead set
Are those who'd die to save your life

We hold fast, dead set
Hold fast, dead set




8. NO SAVIOR

I quit believing in heaven
I found no savior in nothing
I gave away my faith
When I gave my brother a coffin

He was the air in my lungs
He was the blood in my veins
The reason I joined up
The man that I'll never be

A cigarette and a drink
To burn away my night
And keep the ache in my chest
And his candle burning bright

These words they fall on deaf ears
There is only guilt, death and grief
Your god forgot about us
He's just a thief and a cheat

A cigarette and a drink
To burn away my night
And keep the ache in my chest
And his candle burning bright

He was the air in my lungs
(He was the air in my lungs)
The man that I will never be

He was the air in my lungs
He was the blood in my veins

I quit believing in heaven
I found no savior in nothing
I gave away my faith
When I gave my brother a coffin (x2)

Let me be damned (x4)




9. RABBIT FOOT

Dear hope I lost you,
Found solace in a bottle
Now I'm my mother's only son

Brother of mine
I woke up with the sunrise
With an ache in my chest

Brother of mine
Now you sleep at the bottom
Of the blue pacific

Brother of mine
I woke up with the bottle
And an ache in my chest

Brother of mine
Now you sleep in the iron
Bottom, blue pacific

I find no comfort
I find no solace
I've got no use for these

I find no closure
I find no peace
Just these scarred up memories

I've got your letters
I've got your good luck
In your rabbit foot I keep

Around my throat
To keep me from dying
You've always been protecting me
You've always been protecting me
You've always been protecting me

Dear hope I lost you,
Found solace in a bottle
Now I'm my mother's only son

Brother of mine
I woke up with the sunrise
With an ache in my chest

Brother of mine
Now you sleep at the bottom
Of the blue pacific

Brother of mine
I woke up with the bottle
And an ache in my chest

Brother of mine
Now you sleep in the iron
Bottom, blue pacific