Defeater

Abandoned tracks

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1. CONTRITION

"Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners
Now and at the hour of our death
Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners
Now and at the hour of our death
Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners
Now and at the hour of our death"

Forgive me, my father
For I am a sinner
Forgive me, my father
For I am a sinner
Forgive me, my father
For I am a sinner
Forgive me, my father
For I am a sinner
Forgive me, my father
For I am a sinner
Forgive me, my father
For I am a sinner

Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned

Forgive me, my father
For I am a sinner
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned

Forgive me, my father
For I am a sinner
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered




2. UNANSWERED

I was a good man once, I was a good man once
But years of unanswered prayers have left me faithless
I was a good man once but now hopeless and abandoned
I was a good man once, I was a good man once
But years of serving in hell have left me faithless
I was a good man once but now hopeless and abandoned
Now hopeless and abandoned
Hopeless and abandoned

I was a good man once, I was a good man once
But years of unanswered prayers have left me faithless
I was a good man once but now hopeless and abandoned
I was a good man once, I was a good man once
But years of serving in hell have left me faithless
I was a good man once but now hopeless and abandoned

I let the pain in my head to the veins in my arms to rush
I feel the burn in my blood in my lungs in my chest collapse
I feel the ache in my guts as the memories and hurt flood back
When all I want to feel, when all I want to feel is nothing

I let the pain in my head to the veins in my arms to rush
I feel the burn in my blood in my lungs in my chest collapse
I feel the ache in my guts as the memories and hurt flood back
When all I want to feel, when all I want to feel

I was a good man once, I was a good man once
But years of unanswered prayers have left me faithless
I was a good man once but now hopeless and abandoned
I was a good man once, I was a good man once
But years of serving in hell have left me faithless
I was a good man once but now hopeless and abandoned
Now hopeless and abandoned. hopeless and abandoned

Forgive me, my father, for I am a sinner
Unanswered, abandoned, unanswered, abandoned
Forgive me, my father, for I am a sinner
Unanswered, abandoned, unanswered

I was a good man once




3. DECEMBER 1943

I can't remember
Each time, it slips right through my fingers
The eyes and faces of my brothers
That never made it back home to their mothers

And all I remember
Of 1943, December, is Sullivan and I behind the line
We gathered the flock to hold a mass with the Father
And the smoke led the way back to death and flames

My disbelief in what laid before me
Bombed down with no warning, no hope
No hands to hold, no hands to pray for me

No hands to hold, no hands to pray
No hands to hold, no hands to pray
No hands to hold, no hands to pray
No hands to hold

And I remember
The prayers my mother's mother taught her
And though I am no believer
I would be dead with my fellow men if not for the preacher

No hands to pray

If I should die before, before I wake
I pray the lord for my soul, my soul to take

No hands to hold, no hands to pray
No hands to hold, no hands to pray for me
No hands to fold, no hands to pray
No hands to hold, no hands to pray for me
No hands to fold, no hands to pray
No hands to hold, no hands to pray for me




4. SPREAD IN HELL

I’ve never heard the voice of god, I’ve found no trace of heaven either.
Since I was spared in hell I repay the old chaplain that saved me.
I spend my days with the good book, follow every chapter, prayer and verse.
I spend my nights with my vices just to find some proof in the words.

I’ve never heard the voice of god, I’ve found no trace of heaven either.
To try and forget my time in hell, I raise a glass to the saint that saved me.
I spend my days with the bottle, lie in every chapter, prayer and verse.
My nights spent burying demons to find some weight in the words.

Please let me find some weight in the words.
Please let me find some weight in the words.

Please let me find some weight in the words.
Please let me find some weight in the words.

Lord, let me down. Lord, let me down.
I find no proof in the words, no vestige of hope or the lord.
Lord, let me down, lord. Lord, let me down.
I find no proof in the words, no vestige of hope or the lord.
Lord, let me down, lord. Lord, let me down.
Let me down, lord. Let me down.




5. DIVINATION

I walk in shadows and darkness
I feel the feel of the sand
My words are calloused and poisoned
Easy work, the more idle the hand

Cover my tracks to the pulpit
The back alleys, my arms
My veins are thinning and poisoned
Lying tongues in mouths of snakes, guile charm

I feel the feel of the sand
I feel the feel of the sin
I feel the feel of the sand
I feel the feel

Breathe addiction and darkness
I feel the smoke in my lungs
My lips spit venom and poison
All lies except when speaking of love

Cover my ears to the ringing
To the memories and pain
Her voice ,like the singing of sirens
Drown myself among the rocks and the waves

I feel the feel of the sand
My veins, the touch of her hands
I feel the feel of the sin
The acid touch of her hand
I feel the feel of the sand
My veins, the touch of her hands
I feel the feel of the sin
I feel the feel

In my hour of darkness
I feel the feel of the sin
My wounds are calloused and poisoned
Easy work, the more idle the hand
Cover my tracks to a pulpit
The back alleys, my arms
My veins are thinning and poisoned
Lying tongues in mouths of snakes, guile charm

I feel the feel of the sand
Pray to the dirt for repent
I feel the feel of the sin
My veins, the touch of her hands




6. BORROWED & BLUE

Crows sing, early morning
Just before sunrise
Our night spent with the guilt
Until morning light

We share a cigarette, burdens and shame
Our lungs heavy in bliss
Our arms sore from the weight
I may be a sinner, forsaken and damned
Selfish with pride for the touch of her hand

Our lips speak in secrets
Our tongues lie in verse
Our hearts slow with the guilt
Our love our only recourse

We share a cigarette, burdens and shame
Our lungs heavy in bliss
Our arms sore from the weight
I may be a sinner, forsaken and damned
Selfish with pride for the touch of her hand

And I will hold you close with the ebb and flow
Though the tides may turn, we won't
And I will hold you tight like an anchor line
Through the cruelest seas at night

And I will hold you close with the ebb and flow
Though the tides may turn, we won't
And I will hold you tight like an anchor line
Through the cruelest seas at night

We share a cigarette, burdens and shame
Our lungs heavy in bliss
Our arms sore from the weight
I may be a sinner, forsaken and damned
Selfish with pride for the touch of her hand

"Keep me like an old tune, something borrowed and blue
Bury me sound asleep beneath the boards in your room.
I love you still and true.
So watch me move at your will
Just like the tides for the moon."




7. PENANCE

These unfamiliar streets
Where I hide my face and name
And these secrets that I keep
Every stranger looks the same

The cold New England air rips the will from my blood
And I replace it with the ache, the ash, the dirt, and lack of love
No hands to hold, no hands to pray

My lover left alone, my lover left to grieve and mourn
My sins, my cross to bear, the guilt and vows I broke in turn
My lover left alone, my lover left to grieve and mourn
My sins, my cross to bear, the guilt and vows I broke in turn

Most precious sacrament, tip the bottle in prayer each night
With one hand to the altar and the other to the wine
The parish pours out from the church, snow is falling quietly
Let it fall, cover my steps into the dark end of the street

No hands to hold, no hands to pray for me

My lover left alone, my lover left to grieve and mourn
My sins, my cross to bear, the guilt and vows I broke in turn
My lover left alone, my lover left to grieve and mourn
My sins, my cross to bear, the guilt and vows I broke in turn




8. REMORSE

The days since we last spoke turned to weeks, turned to months, turned to years
You were heavy with child with your arms around a stranger in fear
I had the burn in my blood, I had the ash in my veins,
Had the lies I keep hid between teeth
The boy must never know about me, never know of my face.
Between us, hold these secrets we keep
My penance, in your name

"Hail Mary, have mercy
I dread the loss of heaven, living in hell
Forgive me my Father, for I am a sinner"

Rain taps on the window. Burning red neon sign pushes its way through the blinds
Sleep never comes easy. Sinking guts, lacking faith and on the nod every night
Dim glow of the street lights, forgotten tenement for the damned
No cut of the cloth here, just another broken man, waiting, praying for death

My penance in your name
My penance in your name

"Hail Mary, have mercy
I dread the loss of heaven, living in hell
Forgive me my Father, for I am a sinner"




9. PILLAR OF SALT

Nights chasing ghosts, asleep in the pews
Vacant and still, your arm in a noose
Pillar of salt, we can never look back
The lives we have lead, we are cursed in our past

We're cursed in our past, we're cursed in our death

A penance paid for in blood, the guilt set in my hands
Lover stolen from me, demon father be damned
No mercy on me, my selfish sins I detest
Devil lying in wait, collecting his debts

No hope, no hope

Communion of saints, of bread, of body and wine
Quiet and still, drinking me dry
God left here long ago, heavy lies and thorn crown
In pride and in spite, no faith to be found

We're cursed in our past
We're cursed in our death

A penance paid for in blood, the guilt set in my hands
Lover stolen from me, demon father be damned
No mercy on me, myself sins I detest
Devil lying in wait, collecting his debts

Collecting his debts

No mercy on me, myself sins I contest
Devil lying in wait, collect his debts

No hope




10. ATONEMENT

I’ve been slipping away
I’ve been losing the days
I’ve been letting my vices drink from me
No Holy Spirit, no resurrection
I’ve been hoping on death, faith forgotten in theft
Years of heartache and guilt haunting my sleep
No Holy Spirit, no salvation

Hopeless and abandoned
Hopeless and abandoned

I've been waiting a lifetime to hear that voice
Speaking quiet and low, carries the weight of the world
I can hear him helpless between words
I've been paying a lifelong sins penance

Speaking quiet and low, lay down the weight of the world
Find some solace and comfort in the words

"What brings you here my son?
What brings you here my son?"

Hopeless and abandoned
Hopeless and abandoned

I’ve been slipping away
I’ve been losing the days
I’ve been letting the needle bleed from me
No Holy Spirit, no resurrection
I’ve been hoping on death, faith forgotten in theft
Years of heartache and guilt haunting my sleep
No Holy Spirit, no salvation

Hopeless and abandoned
Hopeless and abandoned




11. VICE & REGRET

"Remember not the sins
Offenses of my youth
According to thy mercy think upon me
Oh lord for thy goodness
Blessed are they that mourn
For they shall be comforted
Our father, which art in heaven
Hallowed be thy name
Thy kingdom come
Thy will be done"

Grief and failure burn in my veins
Vice and regret coursing through me
Breathe in defeat, feel it aching
Cold black heartbreak, lungs collapsing

Dear departed, violent hands
Faith forgotten, no redemption
Hard rain falling, coffin timber
Committed to earth, by the hands of your father

Glory be, bloodline buried
I am no one, I am nothing

Glory be, bloodline buried
I am no one, I am nothing

Forgive me, my father, for I am a sinner
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned

Forgive me, my father, for I am a sinner
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned

Glory be, bloodline buried
I am no one, I am nothing

Glory be, bloodline buried
I am no one, I am nothing

Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned
Unanswered, abandoned