Disillusion

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01 And The Mirror Cracked

It came from dismal shadows
Creeping, sudden, from behind.
fell upon my merry whistle
darkened me at heart and sight.
Back with me, one again with the memory
Again I behold the ruins
that I left when I was all devoured by wrath.

Last night out in the timber
a thousand torrent's vehemence
came rushing through my veins
Up my throat and filled the eyes,
And then that I knew
all pain will be undone
When I pack my bags
And depart for lonely roads

And with courageous verve I stride
chop the heads off flowers aside, still wondering

How come you never bleed
When I stab right into your back.
How come you never choke
When I drown you in the sea.

Merely hours passed
that I had left him to his mountains
his colossal idols - one for every spear in me.
Slopes so steep,
I could not conquer in a lifetime.
Now they're all but ruins,
Ruins I left behind.

And with courageous verve I stride
chop the heads off plants aside, still wondering

How come you never bleed
When I stab right into your back.
How come you never choke
When I drown you in the hot and burning sea.

There is always one waiting for me, my beloved
I shall be with her again so soon.
craving for her lips, her kiss
Her hair in summer winds
The morning dew dripping down her breasts.

Shadows and Flames.

I have been demure
Cries were silent but heart ablaze.
have been one of his shadows
Condemned to stray an unlit maze.
My feet are numb, soles torn wide open
After endless years of clambering
My path is lit and leads me north.

And with courageous verve I stride
chop the heads off flowers aside, still wonderin

02 Fall

Deep it must have been
The thorn that spread a veil of constancy
Times in stalemate, times of certitude
Again and again this wound
It's these moments
When the comfort of the bygone
And the light of long gone days
Enchant me with their hollow songs
And grasp for me with their stone-cold hands.

A new morning
Another past coming along
struggling on way too close, way too far
today I do remember
the bitter tears of fall we shed on a day like this

And both we know that you knew
pain would grow through you
But we pretended soils would flourish
from the time we turn our backs.

Saw your eyes in amber leaves
Heard your weeping in repose
Drank your tears with the water
followed your footmarks in the moss.
It's these moments
When the comfort of the bygone
And the light of long gone days
Enchant me with their hollow songs
befool me with a sham appeal

And both we know that you knew
pain would grow through you
But we pretended soils would flourish
from the time we turn our backs.

03 Alone I Stand In Fires

In awkward times at awkward places ...
Rogues in glitter robes, with fierce grimaces
Sneak around me glowering.
I should be running away
But I keep standing here in fires.

Sinister choirs of whip-lashing demons
With circling vultures in a dreadful allegiance.
Singing out of tune in empty words and empty phrases
Heard it all before from a familiar face.

And every tone cuts deep as rain in april
Every chord they form tears open the wounds

But today will be my day
When I stand up and be brave
Today it is me and my ire
Today I stand alone in fires.

Was my heart one of a sparrow?
Caged in the prospects of disbeliefer's eyes
Was I lurking in my own shadow?
For a minute free of compromise.

So many years have passed inside the mussel
So many have defiled my realm
So many foreign tongues and unknown words
So many blether and blether and blether...

Awoke. From sorrow sleep.

And every tone cuts deep as rain in april
And every chord they form tears open the wounds

But today will be my day
When I stand up and be brave
Today it is me and my ire
Today I stand alone in fires.

04 Back To Time Of Splendor

Half way through the wheat, my golden foe
With his itching ears in the scorching heat.
The weight of summer, torment to my hands
Armed with a sickle I am out for his beguiling glance.
Thought I heared a mare neighing from the creek
Where in every hour spared we anxiously would meet.
Drunken whispers noone could hear
'til the day when hordes of wasps
Poisoned every hour so passed.

She was faint as I when she spoke to me.
Reluctantly. Words came through
Words of leaving here and leaving me.
And her eyes grew bigger then
Bound in moonlit glittering.
She Leaned to me and whispered tears into my ear.

Well, I went to see the creek again
And many a day I'd stand at its shoreline wondering
If it might be heading north
Through the timber, passed the lake and our chalet
should have gone with her, should have gone with me.

But I stayed when she begged me
to come with her, never to separate, never to be alone.
And lept silent when I should have sung the song of heart
And remained loyal to the thief.

There is a road that I must travel
May it be paved or unseen
May I be hindered by a thousand stones
Still onward I'd crawl down on my knees

At sudden swallows took upon the scene
Heralding what I could not have foreseen
a threat of rain on the dark horizon
A strong foreboding of a storm arising.
And willows'd roar, midges dazzled
birches sigh from painful lessons
lessons they'd learned in life
that every stem breaks if bent too far.

Will I run for a shelter and quiver ?
Will I run away, be idle and shiver ?

And thunders pound so hard, pound the drums of warfare
Hungry clouds draw closer with reptile teeth as lightning

05 A Day By The Lake

Back at last from yearning slumber
when the nightly drama came to a close
Hoping that fall will never come
Salute the morning sun
Inviting us to idleness
Hoping that fall will never come
The hour calls for secrecy
silently we'd slip out to the lake
Hoping that fall will never come
And I stumble as of vertigo
Can't await the sound of gentle waves
melting with the rhythm of our crave.

But today there are only elegies
Filling our tainted elysium
Still hoping that fall will never come
This place turned to a fraud mirage
Deceitful and untrue.
Still hoping that fall will never come
Embraces solace me
They hide my tears in pastel drapery
Still hoping that fall will never come
And I cry just as you
Knowing, this is coming to an end
But still I am hoping that fall will never come.

But it came.

06 The Sleep Of Restless Hours

Imposture!
At the peak of my triumphant march
Conjuration!
Doubt befalls me so close to the end.

Cannot move any further
Feet are tired from the haste
So close to the finale
I desperately need to rest

Face to face with the very substance of my journey
Just need to reach out and grab the gold
Take the crown and be king for a lifetime

But in the hour that I longed for
At the vertex of my crave
Just when I thought I had broken free
I'm even deeper inside the maze

But I don't feel lost anymore
Somehow I do not feel astray
Somehow I' m not the same as before
Maybe I've grown wiser on the way

So I write this down for you to know I've been here
Tired, torn and stripped down to the core

And that I'm not the same as yesterday
Somehow I've just grown wiser on the way

Thus, I write all this down for you to know I've been here
Close enough to almost feel your breath
Write this down for you to know
I've slept the sleep of restless hours
And when I woke, I left with the promise I would be back

Fool, Me!
Swimming in the burning sea
I have seen the careless me!

Thus, I write all this down for you to know I've been here
Close enough to almost feel your breath
Write this down for you to know
I've slept the sleep of restless hours
And when I woke, I left with knowing I would be back