Depressive Age

First Depression tracks

Lyrics


1. Awaits

[Instrumental]




2. Beyond Illusions

We know some things are true and believe it is a lie
At first we smile and when it's too late we just cry
We know it's a lie and believe that it is true
Oh what a stupid thing to do

No God will save or condemn you, set a goal for your life
And find the way to reach it, so you can try to strive for
Intensity and brightness and depth in your life
To get the strength to live
To live beyond illusions

We swallow all the bad facts like bitter medicine
And live conveniently in world built on sand
Carrying on to excess, going to extremes
Real good ideas falling on deaf ears
No God will save you condemn you, set a goal for your life
And find the way to reach it, so you can try to strive for
Intensity and brightness and depth in your life
To get the strength to life
To live beyond illusions

Short sightedness don't look against the present
Loss of all honesty ruin is declared to progress
Adaptation the law of the crowd
Manipulation sneaks into all brains
Indifference gains the upper hand
Ignorance is no excuse




3. The Light

Hear the whispers through the trees
A giant scene senses this cold breeze
No moon, no star looks through blackened clouds
But a light waves in water now it's out

Come, come to me
You can trust me what is this I can't believe?
Behold the waves
Through the trees only a light which I have seen?

Men in the villages talking with fear
Mysterious tales about this rivershore here
More than ten fishermen misguided by a light
Claiming its victims before the sunrise

Come, come and see
What's within me are you the light which I have seen?
The secret thing
In my warm sphere this fatal voice wants to take my will

Extinguished fire's smoke has not yet disappeared
Fire's wiped out by wind and the drops of wet leaves
Now it is still, shyly falls the rain
And the light in the water is shining again

Don't trust your feet cause it makes you insane

Behold the waves
Through the trees are you the light which I can see?
The secret thing
In my warm sphere
this fatal voice takes my fear
Imagine new
Reality you shine so bright I feel the heat
I am your guide
Follow me hypnosis, I fall asleep
The secret thing
In my warm sphere this fatal voice takes my will
I am your guide
Now follow me it pulls me and I move my feet




4. No Risk

Hello my friend, listen to me
I've got a woman and you know her very well
You must help me, yes you will call
Put on a strange voice and tell her I'm dead

There's no risk my friend
Cause I'll come back soon to her

I will be gone two weeks and you must bring the news
To a secret place where we meet
Watch what is happening, visit her at home
Say that you're looking for me, be careful!
There's no risk my friend
Cause I'll come back soon to her

Nice to see you my dear
With innocence in my face
Knocking on her door
Forever closer than before

So it will be

And so the woman is in despair
Goes to the police, they cannot help
For her the only possibility: tablets
And be free suicide

There's no risk my friend
Cause I'll come back soon to her

Nice to see you my dear
Madness and pain races my fear
Standing at the coffin side
Can't look your parents in the eyes

Nice to see you my dear
I remember the day when I found you there
The suicide letter is a secret in time
Nobody knows a reason why




5. Autumn Times

Walking through my brain who's leading?
Can I pass these moments here
These sleepless nights at full moon
I am worried about my way

I fear future, I fear past
In this sadness is no rest

I must sleep, I'm tired of those
Thoughts that had filled my head
Twenty six years you would be
Died so young, forsaken fast
I fear future, I fear past
In this sadness is no rest

Can't stand these sad and depressing
Memories of autumn times
To which sphere have you gone my sister
Thirteen years and you escaped

Then the smell that comes from outside
Brings the sleep I need so much
So afraid of these darkest hours
When I'm dreaming of the past

I fear future, I fear past
In this sadness is no rest

Can't stand these sad and depressing
Memories of autumn times
To which sphere have you gone my sister
Thirteen years and you escaped




6. Transition

With intend to die I move onto the roof
I await this fall bringing peace after all
I will cross the border, set my life out of order
Dissatisfied from the superficial frame of mind
A magical attraction disperses fear of height
In sudden ecstasy gravity embraces me

Shadows cross my mind, my inner eyes are blind
Now I try to cry, laughing while I fly
Avalanches of incredible presentiments
Break walls where I left all reason behind
I am like a bird flying south in winter
But for me it is never to return

I will stop brooding, no remorse at all
Finally time for self deception is past
I enjoy this marvelous trip of my body
My spirit flies to an unknown destiny
In the air suspended I look at what's below
Deadly frightened eyes staring into mine

If there is an entry to a new dimension
Can I make any move or am I just a toy?
Was it intention or who threw the dice?
All I really getting to the bottom of life?
After day will be night, after dark shall be light
Who says that those axioms will ever be right?

Can you tell me where's the place of conception?
Can you tell me where's the place of death?
Who decides what, who, how we will be?
Is there anywhere an ultimate goodbye?

I lift my face, seize the expanse of the sky
Welcome to this journey, destination's free
For a moment it seems I could fly forever
But now I feel how the impact broke my spine
I am like a bird flying south in winter
But for me it is never to return

If there is an entry to a new dimension
Can I make any move of am I just a toy?
Was it intention or who threw the dice?
Am I really getting to the bottom of life?
After day will be night, after dark shall be light
Who says that those axioms will ever be right?

Can you tell me where's the place of conception?
Can you tell me where's the place of death?
Who decides what, who, how we will be?
Is there anywhere an ultimate goodbye?

Can you tell me how to get to heaven?
Can you tell me how to get to hell?
I wanna tell you but my voice grows silent
Maybe when you die you will know it too




7. Innocent In Detention

Oh how I hate the leader's voice
A prisoner like me
Quick looks through the window show me
Gas towers in the dawn
They seem to hang about the prison wall
Seem to hang about the prison wall

And when the columns marching
To the place where we work so hard
Out in the cold, I am so tired
This wintertime has no end
The sound of the boots is always there
It keeps waking me up

The short hair that I wear is frozen in the wind
And my brain feels the same
My moves electrified by rail track work all day
I'm longing to kill the time
I blame you for my misery
This little, little misery

I don't fear the tears that gather in my head
They mean the sadness of this place
I laugh and wonder about the good things deep within me
Oh just a little misery

And when the columns marching from the place we work
Out in the cold I am so tired
The sound of the boots is always there
If keeps waking me up
I blame you for my misery
This little, little misery,

I don't fear the tears that gather in my head
They mean the sadness of this place
I laugh and wonder about the good things deep within me
Oh just a little misery

I blame you for my misery
This little, lithe misery

A few years later lurking in my dreams
Winter, pounding from the boots
At every step they take a smell of gas and coal
Under the command of stupid guards




8. Never Be Blind

I see love and I see hate
I see pleasure and I see disdain
I see hypocrisy and sincerity
I see famine and gluttony

And I will never be, never be blind
I see torture and I see cure
I see patients and freaks very cool
I see mockery and sympathy
I see greed and I see modesty

And I will never be, never be blind

I see yesterday and I see today
I see sunlight and I see dark night
I see meanness and generosity
I see misery and luxury

And I will never be, never be blind




9. Circles Colour Red

When the circles start to dance
Before my eyes they dance again
I must hit them in the centre until the circles colour red
Blood streams under my eyelids, I wake up in red tears and sweat
I cried

Where chasms of ice fill my heart
Incurable inner war starts
I shudder with my insane pain
When madness takes the reign

Running through the masses
Running through the streets
Running through the centre
Out of sight, out of mind

Waiting for a break
Inside I have lost
My last bit of
Brightness, brightness

Feel the gun under my clothes
See a child run across the road
Jerking hands, a flash in my mind
Think I know this fatal sign

I'm fed up with false
Mercy, try to set
My captive heart free
See in me an evil plat
Searching for
What I am here for
See the world through timid eyes
Only lies, only lies

Feel the gun under my clothes
See a child run across the road
Jerking hands, a flash in my mind
Think I know this fatal sign

When the circles start to dance
Before my eyes they dance again
I must hit them in the centre until the circles colour red
Desire to kill loads the gun, 'til. they catch me I'm on the run

Feel the gun under my clothes
See a child run across the road
Jerking hands, a flash in my mind
Think I know this fatal sign