Mayhem

Inside Out tracks

Lyrics

1. MAN OF VIOLENCE

(Intro Solo: Dave)

My life is ruled by feelings of hate
Influenced by my mind state
The memories I can't ignore
Of the life I lived before
So don't you fuckin' look at me
Who said you could speak to me?
I haven't thought of what you said
Cause my actions show what's in my head

Where was your love when I needed it most, all I feel is hate
My life has no sense of direction, going nowhere at this rate

My wife can't do anything for me
The more she nags the worse it seems
The way that I relieve my stress
Is taking it out on someone's face
I've taken it out on her before
I hit her, she fell to the floor
That's when she walked out on me
Intensive care soon she will need

Where was your love when I needed it most, all I feel is hate
My life has no sense of direction, going nowhere at this rate
When did you show you cared for me, you hurt me by neglect
Other kids knew I wasn't like them, different from the rest

No mummy's kisses no daddy's smiles
I never seem to get it right
The one feeling that I felt
Was the bucle of my father's belt

(Solo: Dave)

So getting my kicks out of kicking in your head
Means someone will be dead
That's when they'll put me away for good
My fists washed of the blood
I realise there's something wrong
My temperament that's not so strong
Nothing hurts me anymore

Nothing bothered me before

(Based on a BBC2 documentary called "Men of violence")




2. HOUSE OF CARDS

Never a day that passes by
With no break without a sigh
No feeling, quite like this
Of one's life that's gone a miss
It's been said a thousand times before
You knock you don't just walk through the door
But don't believe your fucking luck
Some bastard doesn't give a fuck

Commit the crime!
Crime!

So what was your bad deed for the day
Whose life did you go and blow away
You had to have that last drink
Not aware of the fact you didn't think
That rainy night was not so clear
The slippery road made it hard to steer
The last moment you saw the face
A pretty young girl, what a waste

It's a crime!
Crime!

One blow, your life comes falling down
Pick up the pieces on the ground
In time you'll find it ain't so hard
In this life, this house of cards

Stand tall, stand firm you must resist
Ant though it hurts to exist
These jigsaw pieces ain't so hard
In this life, this house of cards

(Solo: Dave)

One blow, your life comes falling down
Pick up the pieces on the ground
In time you'll find it ain't so hard
In this life, this house of cards

Stand tall, stand firm you must resist
Ant though it hurts to exist
These jigsaw pieces ain't so hard
In this life, this house of cards

(Solo: Dave)

I bet you thought, it couldn't happen to you
Once the joker, now the fool
Your apology doesn't mean a thing
She's dead and gone and we don't see you laughing

(Solo: Dave)




3. APPOINTMENT WITH FEAR

Next door neighbour family man
Out of the blue with gun in hand
Can't forget the look in his eyes
Can't someone tell me why
Not even mother could understand
Stood there with gun in hand
They say a friend in need
Must be a friend in deed

No motive to this bloody day
No reason for the foul play
Betrayed the trust of your family
Through your eyes only you can see
Is it a question of hate?
For this long you did wait
Silent rage deep inside
All built up feelings hide

The strangest feeling when I woke today
Something will happen but I can't say

Friends: No time to runaway
No - No: Your lives will end today
Friends: Your end is drawing near
It's your appointment with fear

(Solo: John (with chorus words))

(Solo: Dave)

Strangest feeling churned inside
As I turned and looked in his eyes
Trigger happy mad man loose
Visions of death come into view
Michael what have you done
Now you've nowhere to run
Now this choice you must make
End it now for God's sake

(Note: The above is a true story.
No names have been changed
The guilty stand)




4. THOUGHT FOR THE DAY (CD BONUS TRACK)

It's not as strange as it may seem
That your life has not changed totally
And as many as a man has said before
"Your life could end outside the door"
But still you just carry on without a care
For what's going on
You take everything for granted
You get up and eat, then you go to bed
And you watch the news on TV
Come in from work and eat your tea
And starving millions watch and wait
As you plunge your knive into your stake
You see world leaders meet demands
And say world peace is at our hands
You walk on the street to be attacked
Come home with a knife in your back

Next door neighbour is beating his wife
You don't see at her throat there's a knife
Let them sort their problems out for themselves
There's a saying keep yourself to yourself
Across the stree you hear a little girl cry
Still you think that everything is alright
Then you find out the very next day
Her innocence was taken away

(Solo: Dave)

You've got problems of your own
And charity begins at home
And about the shit you have nothing to say
You read the paper every day
I guess you're jusat an everyday man
You always do the best that you can
And we all make the same mistakes
For being human is what it takes

What would you say if your wife walked out today,
Taking the kids?
Would you go out and live with your mistress
With whom you've risked?
What would you say when caught red-handed
Doing it in your own bed?

I hear this everyday
It doesn't matter what you say
The same things all the time
It's not praying on my mind
It's not praying on my mind

(Solo: John)

Look at the clock running out of time
You've got your eyes and I've got mine
Hands in pockets to check your wealth
Full view mirror the state of your health
Out with your friend on a saturday night
Come home drunk to argue with your wife
Then up early you've got to go to work
What you think you don't want to talk

What would you do if your brother caught AIDS
Hide your face?
Open your mind a little bit more
They're looking for a cure
And he's not the only one
There are many, many more

I hear this everyday
It doesn't matter what you say
The same things all the time
It's not praying on my mind
It's not praying on my mind




5. WINTER'S TEAR

Of mice and man, and all the way to the bitter end
Will it ever end?
These four walss hold no comfort
No warmth at all, only the cold
I could show you a place that would make you sad
Where man stood proud
But the sights reduce all
And the most frightening thing of all
Is what's held in your hand

I try to forget, but the memory of war
Is stronger now than it was before
And when I fall asleep at night
I wake and reach for my gun
But there's nothing there
And there's noone there
It's just another nightmare
From which I can't run

The sweat runs cold as a bitter chill bites from the night
It's another one of those nights
Sleep doesn't come easy now
And when it does it doesn't last long
And these sleepless nights are all I have to show
No medal is worth its weight in gold
The scars on my flesh are nothing
Compared to the nightmares, so cold

(Solo: Dave)

I could almost be there, I could taste the air
Running so real through the killing fields
Machine gunfire, shredded by barbed wire
Then I see my friend and the nightmare ends

But will these nightmares ever end!

Johnny was my only friend
We swore to be there until the end
Side by side for days we fought
And end it all if we were caught
And as I stared into his eyes
Upon his face appeared a smile
The he fell into my arms
And died right there in my arms

(Solo: John)

His blood dripping from my hands
And what I could not understand
Is why my friend so brave so tall
Should be the one who's made to fall?
I lost the best friend that I had
He died with pride, that's not all he had
His little boy will have to know
Why daddy won't be coming home

I relieve it all every night of my life
Noone can help, not even my wife
It all keeps flooding back
The blood and bullet in my friend's back
The sreams, the tears, the tormented cries
The pain to show the white of an eye
And to have seen what I had seen
Would make the hardest man cry

(Outro melody: Dave)

(Note: The names and events in the above are fictional
Any similarity to persons living or dead is purely coincidental)




6. THE INNOCENT ONE

You enjoyed yourselves, you were having fun
In lust you didn't care what you have done
Careless not to use anything
And agreed too young to hear wedding bells ring

In the back of the car is where it's happening
A secluded place noone will see a thing
A fit of giggles is how it went
And he whipped it out at the las moment

Don't you forget your responsability
Don't you regret if you start a family
It's your fault, screw your head on tight
The difference between wrong or right

(Solo: Dave)

She finds out later she's missed a month
And it's coming to light what they have done
You don't want your parents to find out
So you decided to take the easy way out

(Solo: Dave)

You've done it now no turning back
Carry on with your life on the straight track
Now you imagine what might have been
The small pitter patter of tiny feet

Little hands and little eyes
This little person was alive
Because the guilt is in your mind
This little person says goodbye

(Solo: John)

Is it because you feel pressurized
Responsability too early in your lives?
Don't want to be tied down this way
Your reputation you must save
Regretting now what you had done
You just look after number one
Rejecting a part of your lives
You'll bare the scars all your life

It's irresponsability
Making a mistake with your body
The law should say that you can't run
A chance of life for the innocent one




7. MY TWISTED MIND

I'm sat in this chair
Staring into nowhere
I'm happy as can be
Because of the thing I see
You can't come in my brain
And you mustn't know my name
Cause of the things I know
This world must not be told

I long to hear your screams
I'm living off this sick dreams
It's not reality
It's in my mind what I see
You'll know what I feel
If and when I make it all real
This feeling of lust
To know your flesh I must touch

I watch you from afar
And I know where you are
All the moves you make
And the steps you take
My motives are sick but true
The thing I want to do to you
Give in to my will
Don't make me have to kill

My twisted mind - My twisted mind
My twisted mind - My twisted mind

I follow you through the day
And film you at night
You've never seen me
I stay right out of sight
But one day you'll turn around
And look straight into my eyes
And succumb to my desires
As I hypnotise

(Solo: Dave)

I replace the receiver
When you pick up the phone
You've never heard my voice
Just my breath on it's own
One day I'll say "I'm coming to get you"
So just lie there and
Let me do what I want to do




8. CIRCLES (CD Bonus Track)

Oh Shit! Look at the time
I must get up, got to be on time
Another day, another piece of me
Is falling away
Because I've got a job
The family think that I'm the lucky one
But I'll just tell you this
There must be something better than this

Well I'm going round in circles
I don't know who the fuck I am
I get up and go to work, get up and go to work,
Then go home at night
My life revolves around one thing
The way I make my daily bread
And there's nothing to say
I won't be doing this until the day I'm dead

You say work by the rules
I thought I'd fucked that off when I left school
Please don't hassle me, I've done my work
Give me my pay at the end of the week
Friday night I'll go out, relieving my stress
On a night out on the town
In my pocket there's a hole
I've pissed my pay up against the wall

Round and round I go
Where I stop nobody knows
I'm getting nowhere fast
Just how long can I last
There must be a way to make
Something better of my days
I'm going round in a rutt one off
These days I'll self-destruct

(Solo: Dave)

I stopped, looked around
And realize I'm in a spin
But noone would ever know
The mess that I'm in
You can't be serious to say
I've made a mistake
I don't think there's much more
Of this I can take

(Solo: Dave)

Days turn to weeks turn to months
And what have I done?
Lived for a weekend and a week in the sun
Made some money enough
To pay my daily deeds
But I can't buy a fulfilling life for me

The bosses hassle me making me feel
That my will's not free
Please cut your hair comply
To the order or the doors over there
Suck my dick, I don't want to be
Another arse lick
Because if you lick their arse
In their eyes you'll be the top of the class




9. NO ESCAPE

(Intro Solo: Dave)

Terrified, this life of hate
Brainwashed, scarred, but it's too late
Outcast in this concrete waste
Rotting souls all in one place
Wasted hope, my life goes by
Demolition before my eyes
Scared, confused for what's in store
My life could end outside the door

Trapped, alone, no escape
Caged within this state
Trapped, alone, no escape
No way out of this place

Distressed by the things I see
Afraid, I feel their eyes on me
Mortified of their attack
No escape, no turning back
Terrorised, I turn and run
Immortal fear that drives me on
Blinding pain reels in my head
Battered, robbed, I'm left for dead

As I bolt the door, late at night
Through my spy hole there in my sight

(Solo: Dave)

Warped with agony, try to stand
Noone cares to lend hand
Stranger helpless to my cell
Lock to door, shut out the hell
Depressed and hurt, no point to this
Don't they know that we exist
No escape from violent crime
In my world I waste my time




10. BENEATH CLOSED EYES

When you close your eyes you realise
That you're safe from the world on the outside
But the worse fear of all is the darkness
That lurks not on the out, but the inside

You're sleeping, you're dreaming, you're screaming
It's creepy, it's deepening unbelieving
You're twisting, you're turning, you're bending
It's frightening and scaring, never ending
You're falling, you're calling and shouting
And trying to wake, no mistake
You're spinning, you're drifting, you're loosing
This battle to wake, you can't wait

You're locked in, you're blocked in, you're tied down
You're trying to escape, from mind rape
You're crawling, then walking, then running
From what's deep inside your own mind
You reach out for crying out
Won't someone drag me out
No one's there, no one cares
As you're pulled down much deeper, it's darker
Nothing is bright, eyelides shut tight

You're spinning around and then you fall down
And the sweat starts to pour
And it screams as it hits the ground
You fall off the edge and you jump up in bed
And the bottom draws near and you scream in fear

Don't be afraid
I'll always be there
To catch you when you fall
Close your eyes

(Solo: Dave)

You're sleeping, you're dreaming, you're screaming
It's creepy, it's deepening unbelieving
You're twisting, you're turning, you're bending
It's frightening and scaring, never ending
When you close your eyes you realise
That you're safe from the world on the outside
But the worse fear of all is the darkness
That lurks not on the out, but the inside

(Classical Outro: Dave)




11. INSIDE OUT(RO)

(Bass instrumental)