Sylvan

Posthumous Silence tracks

Lyrics


1. ETERNITY ENDS

Heat grows cold, light becomes dark
And the dust returns to the earth as it was




2. BEQUEST OF TEARS

In the quietness of my silent walls
Where the shadows play the dance of you
All around me – where each part once told your life
Where the window still reflects your smile

Still I feel you, still I'm trapped within our time
Wondering vainly – why you left, my child
When my fingers start to open your bequest
Clutching tightly the lifeless book you left… for me




3. IN CHAINS

Cold spreads out a chill of fear when the wind blows
Used to freeze and bind me here… and now it grows
Feel they will exploit my crude naivety
Things I will reveal to you – my diary

Put into words what I'm feeling, put into words my whole life…

In chains – when will I freak out in chains?
Thoughts that are about to rise will be unbound
Doubts – I try to verbalize and write them down
Push the narrowness aside incessantly
It's just in you that I confide – my diary

Searching, I'm searching the world in my head
Hoping, still hoping to find it somewhere
Traveled through landscapes in quest of this place
Where peacefully sugary roses await…

Mellowly in arms wide open – they comfort me in peace
Countless people notice me and listen honestly
Colorful but open-minded they tolerate me all
Wouldn't it be great if I can find this lost imaginary world…

There are times, when – through the haze – I find it hard to see
There are times, when I regret there's no-one here for me
There are times, when I'm alone, I'm crying desperately
There are times, when I miss Daddy's hand that's guiding me…

When do I quit the labyrinth of my life?
When do I quit the labyrinth inside?
When do I quit the labyrinth… sometimes?
When will I quit the labyrinth of my life?

Find me – and I would take you on this trip with me
Guide me – you'd use my eyes to judge what I can see
Raise me – I'll show you all the things that worry me
Please help me – this is my SOS… my diary

In chains – when will I freak out in chains?




4. BITTER SYMPHONY

Close your pages, lay them down
Dim the light and look around
Feel the sorrow invades me
Feel the bitter symphony

When you searched me I wasn't there
When you called me I didn't care
All the signs that I ignored
Now I learn the fights you fought




5. PANE OF TRUTH

Lying in my bed of tears, haunted by the eye of sorrow
Overloaded sceneries – living side by side
Voices from this mouth of screams tempted me with thousand faces
Waiting in this room of fears hope to fall asleep

Once in times so long ago when I heard the breeze of laughter
Innocence so warm and neat like sunbeams through the pane of glass and
Now that all those years gone by – fading light replaced by sorrow
Wonder if this light was just a dream…

Starring through the open hole, paralyzed and full of anger
All the people that I see since the world has changed
Visions of distorted lust – travesty of human nature
While this window silently suffocates my screams…

Once in times so long ago when I heard the breeze of laughter
Innocence so warm and neat like sunbeams through the pane of glass and
Now that all those years gone by – fading light replaced by sorrow
Wonder if this light was just a dream…

Pieces cut out elementary – Paranoia fades out gently

… Fade out, you lied – fade out and die…

Looking at the flattened walls – thought I saw a trace of something
Lying in my room of dark, windowless but safe

Once in times so long ago when I heard the breeze of laughter
Innocence so warm and neat like sunbeams through the pane of glass and
Now that all those years gone by – fading light replaced by darkness
Wonder if this light was just a dream…




6. NO EARTHLY REASON

Lift my head and look outside
See the city sleeps
Watch the lights and breathe the air
That tries to dry the tears in me

Haunting thoughts are whispering
I try to understand

And the voice that speaks from deep
Uses the words you left for me




7. FORGOTTEN VIRTUE

Each day I leave my realm, step out of my door – I breathe in carefully
Then from the black façades I watch the rain fall – and courage falls in me
I try to see the sky but I just see walls – they trap me silently

Some people shout at me and it's a known call: the city jeers at me

And I can not, I can not stand it all…

It bruises all my life and all I lived for – unfurls so ruthlessly
Exists to vandalize, I hate it much more – it kills the child in me
And naturally surrounds me day in, day out, phagocytizes all
They call it just progress I call it breakdown – am I the only one?

And I can not, I can not stand it all…

Scaffolds rising through the sky… so threatening…
They sprout and spill their concrete lies

If this is what you want to live through – just myopic curiosity
If this is what satisfies you – then I lost the faith I had in me

… Oh, you got to feel…

False vows paired with false intentions – but they drown in all the other lies
But if there's something I believe in, then there has to be another side

It leads me away, it drags me away, it pulls me away, it drives me away

Each day I leave my realm, step out of my door – I breathe in carefully
Then from the black facades I watch the rain fall – and courage falls in me
I try to see the sun but I just see clouds – and people pass my way

So with a known disgust I quickly turn round – it's just a normal day




8. THE COLORS CHANGED

Fought my way through gloomy alleys, felt the storm in my face
Looked around me as I noticed some flowers covering stony space

And it felt like a rush of blood to my head
And it woke in me feelings I had hidden away

Colors please grow for me, paint my world rosily
Show me…

Was it raining from the facades when the walls started to fade?
Look around me and it seems like all the colors have changed

And it feels like a rush of blood to my head
And it wakes in me feelings I had hidden away

Colors please grow for me, paint my world rosily
Keep me just sheltered and warm
Save my lost blossomy, values I trusted in
Show me …

And it feels like a rush of blood to my head
And it awakes in me feelings I had hidden away

And I start to paint this place as marvelous as it can be
And I paint it colorful to cover all the cracks I see
Draw the lines I should have made so long ago with grateful strokes
Let it fill the place of distrust and impenetrable smoke

Colors in my eyes replace the achromatic atmosphere
Do I fantasize or it's the sound of birds that I can hear?
When I chase the falling leafs and track their path so mindfully
Will they finally guide me to my world and to eternity?

Would you shoot up, grow my garden, please my Eden grow for me
Show me how you decorate the streets that brought me misery
Outspread all your roots and blow up all these stones that build the wall
Shatter all that binds me here, don't give me up, please hear my call…

Colors please grow for me, paint my world rosily
Keep me just sheltered and warm
Save my lost blossomy, values I trusted in
Show me…




9. A SAD SYMPATHY

Look up faintly and I lack the power to cry
Fall down deeply and I dream again

Reach to touch the drawing that described your mourning

And it is as if I understand…




10. QUESTIONS

They move in the rhythm of their time and keep it inside
They rush through the alleys of their lives and think that's alright

They see through their visions what they want to see
Act in their courtyard like they want to be
They think they can hear it, but they're deaf indeed
Spread out their ideas egoistically

When I'm locked-in, will I break down?
When I grow up, will I freak out?
Will I crack up when they change all?
Will I dry out, will my mask fall?

Will they change me? Will it ease me?
Will they shape me? Will it pull me under?

Will it tear me? Will it ruin me?
Will it reach me? Or just pull me under?

They move in the rhythm of my time and rub off my signs
They rush through the alleys of my life and repaint them with lies

Will they catch up, will they get me? Disappoint and then they blind me
Will they brand me, yet they're hurting me, will they wound me?
They're deserting me




11. ANSWER TO LIFE

When they talk to me – I just shut my ears
When they shout at me – pretend not to hear
And they laugh at me – let they have their say
They're approaching me – and I turn away

At the border of sense – left a wasteland behind
I have built it alone – that's my answer to life
At the limit of strain – found the nature in me
I have put down my bags and I'll stay endlessly

Now my former friend – though you seem confused
Ceased to understand our old speech we used
Once you let me down, should have thought before
Now you fade away – don't exist no more

… This is the answer to life…




12. MESSAGE FROM THE PAST

I'm starring into space, falling quietly, captured by her pages
In the corner of my eyes I note instinctively how my chamber changes

And the white leafs – moving slightly – theyre caressing my hands
Look around me and it seems like all the colors have changed

Now that I'm broken at the end of the road
Naked of power and naked of hope
I'd give all my fortune to stop you tonight
To keep you from falling, to save you, my child…




13. THE LAST EMBRACE

Easy is nothing, nothing is near
It used to be my garden but the rules ceased
Silence, why is the silence in me?
I fight the need to struggle with it endlessly
Within and possibly without
I chase the reason and by the way pursue my doubts
Teardrops of night or teardrops of day
When it turns to dust and finally dust your fault I'm leaving
I'll cry the tears for you, oh dad
Please let me reach my Eden

Disappear into thin air
A new leaf's turned over
Vanish from the world out there
For the wind got colder
Pleasantly I found the truth
Guiding me back to my roots
Finally it leads me soon to origins where I belong

Please let me know you'll understand
It's not your fault I'm leaving
I'll cry the tears for you, oh dad, please let me reach my Eden
Please let me know you'll understand
It's not your fault I'm leaving
I'll cry the tears for you, oh dad
Please let me reach my Eden

I'll cry the tears for you, oh dad
Please let me reach my Eden




14. A KIND OF EDEN

Feel it faintly...
… Feel it shyly… feel it ineffably
… Feel it truly… feel it so silently
… Feel it eternally and feel it expectantly
… Feel it always

In a place that's full of peace, where the calm surrounds me
Swim through liquid mysteries, drop the chains that bound me
In this place so clean and wild - free the world I leave behind
Sink into the deepest quiet - unchangeably I close my eyes

Please let me know you'll understand, it's not your fault I'm leaving
I'll cry the tears for you, oh Dad, please let me reach my Eden

Disappear into thin air – a new leaf's turned over
Vanish from the world out there, for the wind got colder
Pleasantly I found the truth guiding me back to my roots
Finally it leads me soon to origins where I belong




15. POSTHUMOUS SILENCE

In the quietness of his silent walls
Frail und sunken drops her pages down
While the sorrow like a moral guilt falls due
He released her, but she'll mourn for sure

In the deepness of his apathetic dream
How to notice – also his world turned
As the places that once told her life do wane
Darkened spaces – only dust remains…

Lost and forgotten at the dawn of the night
Naked of people and naked of light
We failed to notice to show her we tried
To keep her from falling, to safe this sole child…