Across Five Aprils

Tragedy in Progress tracks



So sure of what I wanted
But what wanted me?
Money speaks louder than my dreams
Normal life was something I'd seen as tragedy
The future is never what it seems
Common life has come so easily
Money adds so much to normalcy
Better years turned bitter
Why can't I do what's right for me?
Turning the page means burning the versus
Of the ones I wrote this with
Certainty has come at such a high price
But it's the price I pay for peace of mind
But do I mind the peace that comes along and all things aside,
Understand these are my dreams
We lived them together for a moment in time
Is this the beginning of the end?
Or the end of the beginning?
Watch it fade away
Watching this thing change
Common life has come so easily
Money adds so much to normalcy
Better years turned bitter
Why can't I do what's right for me?


Do you love me?
I mean really love me
'Cause if you don't then I'll just have to kill you...

Trading 19 years for 19 minutes (following the trends)
Clinging with empty fists your falling in it (this cycle never ends)
Wanting to not want this yet living out tomorrows regret
Regretting to not forget the stuff that comes with it
but you're feeling so special I bet
But you're feeling so special I bet, I bet

Why are you so proud that you took
away this gift from the one she'll truly care for?

How do you testify on giving up the one thing you had to lose
How would you rest if I, how would you rest if I
Said I want to trade it all and be there for you
How would you rest if I testified on you

Don't give up, don't give in, hold on
Don't give up, don't give in, be strong
Don't give up, don't give in, hold on
Don't give up, don't give in, be strong

One last chance (x5)


When you said goodnight, didn't you mean
Goodbye! Goodbye!
It's not the way you loved me, but definitely
How you hurt me! How you hurt me!
Your lies like a dagger through my heart
Pierced me where it, where it hurts the most
If you were gone, would I miss you, or would I be grateful?
I still love you, I still love you
All I ever wanted was your love


We broke down the walls one brick at a time
But infatuation cuts quick and you sharpen the knife
A smile can only get you so far, blue eyed suicide
I was willing to throw it all away but you couldn't decide
A smile can only get you so far, blue eyed suicide
These walls will be higher next time you try to break them and break in
Your existence it burns my eyes
Everytime I try and close them
I thought that things were different this time around
I thought I found someone who meant what they said
Beyond four letters, beyond four letters
I guess I thought that things were different
This time around


Without cause people disapear right before my eyes
Did they speak the truth or were their words disposable
My heart is bleeding you've caused me so much pain
Go ahead leave you're not worth it
Heartache is all that I know
Heartache I embrace now,
It's all I have left in the years I've invested
Thoughtless human shut your mouth
You broke my heart
You've turned your back on all we've been through
The times we've shared I don't miss you
But I miss who you used to be


I don't look that familiar
No, I don't know you from anywhere
Would you care to just be straight with me?
You just met me for the first time and that's fine
Why are you so afraid to speak your mind?
Instead you speak the mind of everyone else
Just think what you could have said
If you had only thought for yourself
To bad you were force-fed feelings
And now you've blocked your own mind out of your head
If you ever want to think on your own, it's ok
Go ahead
Open hands that know not what to hold on to
Closed minds that hold off on what they know is true


Dear Sam,
I'm sorry I pushed you away from everything we had, even me
I couldn't ask you to wait forever
But that doesn't mean that my feelings have changed,
every day your face is clearer
Regret is the burden I'll carry from here to my grave
This distance is the knife in my heart
Let him know the treasure he has
Don't let him make my mistakes
Forever is never to long to wait for something perfect,
I'll be here
Love always


Roll down the windows, the AC's busted
12 hours from home and empty pockets
Didn't get our garuntee another show for free
All for the sake of this rock n roll
It's time to switch drivers
My shift's over I've been driving for 8 hours
It's all worth it, when I plug in and the lights dim
The best 30 minutes of my life... every night
We'll always be here when the rubber hits the road
Dedication never ending
1 2 3 Go
Broken sticks and broken strings, every night
But that's the way it goes, it's alright
A life composed of sticks and strings
It's my release, my dedication comes from within
It's evident that this is my passion
This is the end to everything that's ending
This is the death to everything that dies
The fire behind us burns inside my heart
The fists might fly, but this stage is mine


Am I wasting my time with these feelings?
The pressure's off now so I'm back on the ground
Too bad, I kind of liked it in the clouds with you
Because you take me away from everything and everyone,
That's held me back for so long
Heaven for a few days, makes up for all the hell that life's dealt me, even now that's gone
It seems he's got your attention now, lucky guy
But isn't that the way it always ends?
It seems he's got your attention just like you got mine
I'll express my feelings, then sit back and watch you walk away
You're beautiful in every way to me


I'm lifted by your words
They mean so much
It's been so long since I've smiled
You bring me new life
Is this a dream?
If so I don't want to ever wake
Let me sleep forever
Embrace this moment, it's too good to last for long
Although I wish it could
Don't leave me now, it's too hard, to stand without you


Complete and total adoration,
My gift to you, my heart was yours,
In ten weeks you shaped it,
In one night you murdered it
Torn from my chest and laid at your feet,
That first step you took was the worst
Since then you've walked a thousand miles in solace and short remark,
And I still have these memories,
But we'll never see what we could have been
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember, cause that's all you can do
We'll never make another memory,
We'll never make another memory
I wish I'd have died in your arms the last time we were together,
So I wouldn't have to wake without you today
This time I thought things were real,
You said they were,
What happened?
You were a priority,
Was I an option?
I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone
Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled
Knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart,
I'm sorry that it wasn't enough
So, we'll go our own ways,
And hopefully you'll remember the things I've told you,
Hopefully you'll understand that everything I said was in sincerity
A broken heart is not what I wanted from this,
But I guess I've learned from it
But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes?
I don't consider this a mistake,
I just wish the story didn't end this way,
Cause I'm still in love with the person who helped me write it
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?


Heart-shaped hallways
Leading the way to nowhere
You left me stranded here
Three years from anywhere
No sign of a way back only fear
I'll just follow the fragrance of these fake tears
Your silence says it all. I know your throat is swelling
You want to say so much
But you're afraid you might say what you mean
I loved you for who you were
You tried and tried to change me
It's funny now how you say you're leaving
Because I'm not the man I used to be
Shape someone else now, mold someone new
Take someone else down, your heart-shaped hallway too
Take! someone else now, take! someone new
Take! some one else down, your heart-shaped hallway too