American Head Charge

Trepanation tracks

Lyrics

1. REACH AND TOUCH

I've seen it turn from white to red
I've heard you talk about how
You bleed and it doesnt mean shit
Until I see some action a hint of
Rose and a mountain of garbage
Leaves me for dead and nothing drags me from
Breaking myself
Breaking myself to try to keep everyone
From walking over me
Smell the burning wreckage of even you
All of your perfection lets get inside
The bag turn it 180 degrees
Forget we even met cause it all comes
Down to this the good ones always
Leave in the end
Breaking myself
Breaking myself to try to keep everyone
From walking over me
I see the world and it all looks blue
I kiss the world and it all tastes true
The blurry eyes make me appealing
In a normal fashion another 2 or 3
You will become very friendly
Your liquidation is a siren song
You swim I follow Im feeling my head sink
So as to reach and touch what hurts me
Still I try to reach and touch what hurts me




2. DIFFERENT

I'm chewing my tongue
It makes it so numb
My lower coverings
House many children
So many piercings
I can't stop bleeding
Trails are all I see
Can't help being me
I am so cool
So fucking different
I am so cool
So fucking different
We're all the same
So very different
So fucked up we drool
It's all the same
So many tweakings
I can't stop peaking
My fucking parents
After school meetings
I've got not future
Won't even try
I'm failing at life
Get high and then I die




3. SEAMLESS

Shit filled spasms
Deep in the colostomy bag
I like being trapped inside
The plastics wearing out
Red and perfect
Her legs spread out in front of me
They're so open they make me sweat
It's my lubrication
Recent findings
Say circumcise the abstinent
And make it hard for them to breathe
I like to make you lie
Dropped and so ill
Steeped in my misogyny
My shaking hands are in the skin
I've gone to far too soon
You look so seamless now
She stared at me
Thinking I was sweet to it
Her legs tied up
Apart for me
It feels so good inside
Now I'm thinking
Who's this that lies under me
And needs a piece of my respect
You make me so sick,
I'm crawling, broken
My face is cringing to see
Figures drawn inside of you
Succumb succumb succumb
Sickness fittings
Procured this fascist medium
But now I'm laughing in your face
You lie you lie you lie
You look so seamless now
Take me
Take my life




4. FALL

Pathetic sympathies
Left for the bleeding at heart
Everything fades to shit
Everything tears me apart
Caustic insecurities
Surface above the withheld
Everytime I need
Everything I want
Aesthetic disguises
Confuse easier tasks
Underlying doubts unfold
And my direction dies
Everything's right up in your face
Everyone's right up in front
Push me against the wall
But still you can't make me
Fall
Prosthetic misery
Idiosyncratic
Pushing me to never
Hold my breath
Synthetic misuses
Dragging me higher still
You never brought me to
And still you push me back
Anemic discipline
Produces bad thoughts
Everybody's wrong
Everybody's too strong
Everything's right up in your face
Everyone's right up in front
Push me against the wall
But still you can't make me
Fall
Separate your mouth
Scrape away your skin
I Don't like you at all




5. NEVER GET CAUGHT

Follow me now and I will drown you
Fill you full of reason
No windows, I'll take you
To the dirty place that I love
Slipping on messes you made when I hit you
Makes me more excitable
I'll never get caught
I'll never get caught
Pull it tight I'll see right through it
I'll never get caught
Cradle the difference in front of your fist
Force it down to bring it back up and make them
Listen one more time
Wrapping you up in an American flag
I fuck you for the glory
No complaints
From my friends
They keep their fucking mouths shut
I couldn't care less about the way that you see me
Soothing I will never be
I'll always get shit
I'll always get shit
For acknowledging perversity




6. WHAT

Your mom didn't tell you
You'd have nothing to say
Shut the fuck up bitch
In a poisoned state
While the rapist behind you
Is whispering your name
My lies foreshadow me
They make a scab of me
I can't crawl through this
You can't shut me up
You can't shut me up
Make it rough
What
Difficulty breathing makes you drip
Swallowing on first dates entertains
I scream mistakenly
I'm trying to make you see
What makes him resent you
That's right I lie
Solid filth til I die
But it makes me smile
Lord of the elite
Is prince of the cowards
Try not to choke on it
You can't shut me up
You can't shut me up
Make it rough
What
Difficulty breathing makes you drip
Swallowing on first dates entertains
Misogynist attracted to you
Wallowing in pity's comfortable
What
Get up




7. WHEN I FAILED

Decide everything for me
Subject yourself to it
Make believe it's only your fault
Stifle my own
Ambition
It's been so long since I failed
Nothing alienates this
Anything reminds me
Relieving it only helps
Suffer to make your own gains
It's been so long since I failed
And now my senses fail me
And still my training fails me
And now everything fails me
And still everyone fails me
And still the only thing I have fails me




8. STATURE

Beautiful disease
Trying to stop those fleas
Resist complacences
For what you seize
Sinister laughing in back corners of my mind
Provides my sustinence
A no handed attempt
A rude man at the front
The right bowed to but dead
Accomplished undertone
Shoveling to the def
Out of your other lips
But making me happy
Three in the front room
Are fucking on top of my bed
Uplifting opening
Old scars thought of as healed
Say your prayers for your hate
A nympho to yourself
And now my face it breathes my lies
And my lies, they make me drown




9. TO TASTE ACID

The crowd did move
Was it live
The course it took
Was it right
The crown I wore
Was it mine
The lips that lie
Is it true
The lace that tears
Is it skin
The line that binds
Is it real
The face that smiles
Is it yours
The fall that kills
Is it dead
To control the mannequin
Your wrists will shake
Without circulation
Your face will twitch
Do you feel
Better than me
Do you taste
Better than me
The prey that hunts
Was it found
The people die
Is it right
The place is lost
Will it turn
The guilt that hurts
Will it change
The guess that shames
Will it smile
The game that plays
Does it hurt
The fail that's right
Does it taste
The fuck that hates
Do you care
Did you get
What you wanted
To taste acid
To taste guilt
To taste shame
To taste hate
To taste death
To taste black
To taste acid
To taste red
To taste hell
To taste me
For you to swell
To taste god
To taste acid




10. FEEL THE CURTAIN

I step with two hands open
And kick the man in front of me
Reminded of my father
When will you ever learn
I found you urinating
You found me interesting
Torn raw and feeling sickness
Permit my hypocrisy
Feel the thick curtain
While she sleeps
The stench of my breath pains you
But your just smelling yourself
My plate shows something rotten
I feel so right at home
Dress me in mothers clothing
To teach me how to fuck myself
Fracture my arm like you know
The abuse makes it feel right
Feel the thick curtain
While she sleeps




11. WE BELIEVE

I know this much
I can't stand me
When I become him
I know this much
I don't feel free
When I'm repentant
Tell him this much
You don't want him
Due to extra skin
Tell him this much
You forsake him
Due to pretension
And now we have
Everything we need
To come up to
Where you're pristine
We believe
Tell him this much
You can't withstand
Taking it upright
Tell him this much
You felt dirty
Because it was tight
I know this much
That old feeling
I'm done hanging on
I know this much
Enough pretending
What was had is gone
And now we have
Everything we need
To come to where
Up you are clean
We believe




12. DESERTION

Hey I want your skin to get me off
You make it sound so fucking pure
I'll bring you down and make you scream
Take in what you once thought was hate
And now I want to make it right
And you can't take that away from me
Strive to make you cower like a pig
Sit and squirm in your own stink
You have been the sickest of them all
Gone back to the way it never worked
Did you want me to mistreat you
Did you want me to pretend




13. PUSHING THE ENVELOPE

An overwhelming understanding
Of chaos brings you to your knees
Impurities make me the way that I am
The dirt in my veins
The games on my thoughts
The stains on your face
They break it apart
Pushing the envelope
Life sets me off
Pushing the envelope
Hate gets me off
Motherfucking
Pushing the envelope
Gets me off
Pushing the envelope
Your face it sets me off
I'm curled up inside myself so
I won't imagine the pictures
If I had prosthetic eyes I still think I'd see the same Satisfy retribution in lies
To resemble innocence in lies
Subsequent afternoon's turning scared
Bothered by fallacies everyone's scared
Pushing the envelope
Life sets me off
Pushing the envelope
Hate gets me off
Motherfucking
Pushing the envelope
Gets me off
Pushing the envelope
Your face it sets me off
Killing myself like a tool in wrong
Disquieting changes in direction




14. PRETTY FACE

Play your games with my limp joints
Idolize it's wet paper skin
Listen to the cast preach your life
And infest you with disease
Dress me up with a three piece tourniquet
Fuck and get under the scabs
Never trust what you cannot kill
And pretend that she respects you
Pursuit of liberty
Drags you all across this country
This cunt bleeding
Delivered me
The cord it stretches
Taught and only so far
Before it snaps back
Giving us relief
It's just a matter of time
It's just a matter of time
Before you fall down
And hurt yourself
Far from home
With no one's help
We will be waiting
But his eyes can't see the madness
So she can keep the rule
Formulate what will be that thing that makes me laugh
Your next manipulation
Of the all too friendless
Always seen and never noticed
Dipping my feet in pools of you
Fuck you
Make my face only how you like it
Why can't you smell it hide
Wreck her pussy with your fist
She'll be your minister
Violate my stiff limp body
Only to taste my glass bloodline
Shove it all behind my back
Cauterize my open wound
I never needed to leave
To find out what makes me tick
I arrived by default
My arms three grand long
But not elastic enough
To care for insects
Just beyond my reach
It's just a matter of time
It's just a matter of time
Before I pick you up
And dust you off
Kiss the eyes
That make me rough
I will be waiting
I walked beside myself
But nothing ever changed
And now I walk away
So you can take the blame
Clinical distortion
Affects the bachelor
I still can't find